corazon
"a heart's a heavy burden"
- Mar 30, 2023
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Does anyone else experience this?
I'm not sure this is best section to post this, but I think my tendency to smile in inappropriate situations probably is linked to my social anxiety. I can only assume I suffer from social anxiety, since ironically, my anxiety prevents me from the social interaction required to have this professionally diagnosed. I believe my social anxiety is a major contributor to why I strive to CTB.
To the main point of this thread: despite not feeling as so inside, I tend to grin or even laugh when I shouldn't be. For example, if I'm having a serious or personal conversation with my parents, or just in a generally uncomfortable situation, I have to fight to suppress a smile. This has gotten me in trouble as I come off as disingenuous and uncaring. It seems as though I'm laughing or mocking someone's serious display of emotion and feelings even though I don't feel this way. It is bound to give people the wrong idea.
My parents both know about it and tell me they understand, but they forget. I get it. If I was being honest about something serious, troubling and important to me, and I received a jovial reaction, I'd probably be outright offended. It's gotten increasingly worse and I find myself acting this way more as my mental health deteriorates. I find it so frustrating (and embarrassing). Like my own face is betraying me. I hope I've explained/described this okay.
TDLR;
I often smile (and laugh) in inappropriate situations when I don't mean to. Is this something you can relate to? What do you think causes this?
I'd love to hear any stories and experiences you may have had :)
I'm not sure this is best section to post this, but I think my tendency to smile in inappropriate situations probably is linked to my social anxiety. I can only assume I suffer from social anxiety, since ironically, my anxiety prevents me from the social interaction required to have this professionally diagnosed. I believe my social anxiety is a major contributor to why I strive to CTB.
To the main point of this thread: despite not feeling as so inside, I tend to grin or even laugh when I shouldn't be. For example, if I'm having a serious or personal conversation with my parents, or just in a generally uncomfortable situation, I have to fight to suppress a smile. This has gotten me in trouble as I come off as disingenuous and uncaring. It seems as though I'm laughing or mocking someone's serious display of emotion and feelings even though I don't feel this way. It is bound to give people the wrong idea.
My parents both know about it and tell me they understand, but they forget. I get it. If I was being honest about something serious, troubling and important to me, and I received a jovial reaction, I'd probably be outright offended. It's gotten increasingly worse and I find myself acting this way more as my mental health deteriorates. I find it so frustrating (and embarrassing). Like my own face is betraying me. I hope I've explained/described this okay.
TDLR;
I often smile (and laugh) in inappropriate situations when I don't mean to. Is this something you can relate to? What do you think causes this?
I'd love to hear any stories and experiences you may have had :)