Sleeper System
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- May 5, 2022
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Looking happy on the outside when, in reality, you're struggling with feelings of internal hopelessness and sadness.
I know there are some people who have this sort of coping mechanism. I can't really fathom the energy that it takes to do this.
Personally, I prefer to have an offputting angry "don't bother me" look on my face 95% of the time. However, the moment someone interacts with me, that's when the switch flips and i'm a very friendly and warm person. I think that sort of developed for me througout
working in a retail enviroment where customer service was a part of the job. Either way, it's all an act in both cases.
I'm not happy outside or inside but I will not subject people to dealing with my problems when they're just being human.
My favorite phrase to tell people when they ask why I always look mad is " I'm a friendly person but not a sociable one."
Meaning, I will treat you with respect and kindess and help you if I can but don't mistake that for me WANTING to talk to you.
I lost my smile and happiness a long time ago. This mask is just a cover to help me deal with my grim life prospective.
When it comes to interacting with others in real life... how do you go about it when you know deep down you
don't want to even be alive let alone talking to that person??
I know there are some people who have this sort of coping mechanism. I can't really fathom the energy that it takes to do this.
Personally, I prefer to have an offputting angry "don't bother me" look on my face 95% of the time. However, the moment someone interacts with me, that's when the switch flips and i'm a very friendly and warm person. I think that sort of developed for me througout
working in a retail enviroment where customer service was a part of the job. Either way, it's all an act in both cases.
I'm not happy outside or inside but I will not subject people to dealing with my problems when they're just being human.
My favorite phrase to tell people when they ask why I always look mad is " I'm a friendly person but not a sociable one."
Meaning, I will treat you with respect and kindess and help you if I can but don't mistake that for me WANTING to talk to you.
I lost my smile and happiness a long time ago. This mask is just a cover to help me deal with my grim life prospective.
When it comes to interacting with others in real life... how do you go about it when you know deep down you
don't want to even be alive let alone talking to that person??