Venting small fragment of venting

[annique]

so badly i want to cry, the feeling inside is that of just wanting to let go of the forces i put on to keep myself breathing,
and just fade out of reality, while being bombarded by the plethora of feelings i've kept suppressed for this long
- but i can't, because i'm also feeling too freaking weak;

i have set the end of this year as the last time i would be around,
because what is to come if i'm here next year is miles beyond complete horror,
so the next post of mine will probably be a goodbye thread (hopefully);

i may have already posted threads on needing to leave before the year ends,
i'm sorry if i bring nothing of relevant with these posts,
i just feel the need to vent a bit because i'm in absolute loneliness;

if i met god i would ask him "why?" and would cry​

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings of wishing to be free from all suffering are understandable. Existing really is so painful and I get that it can be such an awful feeling knowing that only torment lies ahead if you continue to exist. I hope that you find what you wish for.

 

[justwanasleep]

What method are you going to use?

 

[annique]

What method are you going to use?

SN method