akira.kewl
joy is a scam made by dentists to sell more smiles
- Dec 4, 2025
- 28
Long time no see, I don't use this site much anymore but I'm still alive I promise! I'm currently planning an attempt that I can actually follow through with.
I know cutting is considered a "non-method" here, but that's because most people don't do any research and just slice down the middle. There's no arteries there, just tendons! The real meat is up at the top of the wrist on the thumb side. The radial artery is superficial, meaning there's a small spot where it isn't covered by muscle, just fat and fascia. Meaning if I did it right, I wouldn't have to deal with the risks of cutting a muscle. If I check my pulse, it's easy to locate where it is.
Although I haven't cut down to the deep fascia before, I've cut down to the fat before (& hit an arteriole). Since the artery is 3mm or so deep, it'd be no deeper than I'm used to in terms of ease & physical depth. I think it would be much easier than other methods because it's something I'm used to and do frequently. I don't like things around my neck and ODs never work unless it's SN which I can't get.
I've bought kai razors (the ones known for being super sharp) and I'm hoping to use them alongside a warm bath to make sure it bleeds out easily & doesn't clot. It wouldn't feel great but I've experienced similar symptoms from other things before, I'm focused on making it as fast as possible. I'd also take ibuprofen & naproxen to thin my blood further (not sure if that'd work but it's worth a shot) along with benadryl to soothe myself a bit and hopefully pass out quicker. If I'm found alive, I don't wanna be awake to feel a tourniquet...
(EDIT: oh, I could take adderall too to raise my blood pressure and increase the bleeding!! so many combo options)
I feel bad for my family, CTB in such a brutal way, but I think the drama fits me. It's better than finding me with my eyes bulged out or something, no? I'd leave a warning outside of the door but I don't want someone to see it before I pass out and stop me, since it'd take some time to get started (before then, I could play it off as if I were taking a bath).
And to be honest, part of why it's my method of choice is because I'm a pussy. I know it could fail, but so be it. I've never really attempted before and I need to break even with the idea of really dying forever. Perhaps it'd even be a test of commitment, of whether I really want to die or not. A test run to "true" methods, if you will. If I succeed, my problems are gone. If I fail, I can be taken seriously as having attempted, be more familiar with attempting, and have a cool scar. Sounds like a win win to me.
Maybe it's a bad and impulsive idea, but it's my life and I don't care. I'm just waiting for my razors to come and then the perfect time. I have my brother's birthday, mother's day, a dentist appointment (they're pulling teeth and something tells me paramedics don't care if they give you dry socket or not), my own birthday (people would've bought me presents and wasted their money if i do it too close), and a bunch of family trips.
In other words, my biggest issue here is trying to find when will be the best time to slit my wrists like the attention seeker I am. I'll either have to squeeze it into May somewhere (low space but less patience needed), June (low space and moderate patience), or July (high space but high patience needed).
Just wanted to share my current plan! :3 it's more of a fantasy than anything as of now, I'll probably use most of the razors for cutting normally once they get here and save one or two for an attempt. Not 100% sure if I'll really follow through or not this time, but it's nice to get it out somewhere and not just have it haunt my thoughts alone 24/7 when I can't even do it right now. I think about just doing it anyway everyday, but I can hold myself back...
I know cutting is considered a "non-method" here, but that's because most people don't do any research and just slice down the middle. There's no arteries there, just tendons! The real meat is up at the top of the wrist on the thumb side. The radial artery is superficial, meaning there's a small spot where it isn't covered by muscle, just fat and fascia. Meaning if I did it right, I wouldn't have to deal with the risks of cutting a muscle. If I check my pulse, it's easy to locate where it is.
Although I haven't cut down to the deep fascia before, I've cut down to the fat before (& hit an arteriole). Since the artery is 3mm or so deep, it'd be no deeper than I'm used to in terms of ease & physical depth. I think it would be much easier than other methods because it's something I'm used to and do frequently. I don't like things around my neck and ODs never work unless it's SN which I can't get.
I've bought kai razors (the ones known for being super sharp) and I'm hoping to use them alongside a warm bath to make sure it bleeds out easily & doesn't clot. It wouldn't feel great but I've experienced similar symptoms from other things before, I'm focused on making it as fast as possible. I'd also take ibuprofen & naproxen to thin my blood further (not sure if that'd work but it's worth a shot) along with benadryl to soothe myself a bit and hopefully pass out quicker. If I'm found alive, I don't wanna be awake to feel a tourniquet...
(EDIT: oh, I could take adderall too to raise my blood pressure and increase the bleeding!! so many combo options)
I feel bad for my family, CTB in such a brutal way, but I think the drama fits me. It's better than finding me with my eyes bulged out or something, no? I'd leave a warning outside of the door but I don't want someone to see it before I pass out and stop me, since it'd take some time to get started (before then, I could play it off as if I were taking a bath).
And to be honest, part of why it's my method of choice is because I'm a pussy. I know it could fail, but so be it. I've never really attempted before and I need to break even with the idea of really dying forever. Perhaps it'd even be a test of commitment, of whether I really want to die or not. A test run to "true" methods, if you will. If I succeed, my problems are gone. If I fail, I can be taken seriously as having attempted, be more familiar with attempting, and have a cool scar. Sounds like a win win to me.
Maybe it's a bad and impulsive idea, but it's my life and I don't care. I'm just waiting for my razors to come and then the perfect time. I have my brother's birthday, mother's day, a dentist appointment (they're pulling teeth and something tells me paramedics don't care if they give you dry socket or not), my own birthday (people would've bought me presents and wasted their money if i do it too close), and a bunch of family trips.
In other words, my biggest issue here is trying to find when will be the best time to slit my wrists like the attention seeker I am. I'll either have to squeeze it into May somewhere (low space but less patience needed), June (low space and moderate patience), or July (high space but high patience needed).
Just wanted to share my current plan! :3 it's more of a fantasy than anything as of now, I'll probably use most of the razors for cutting normally once they get here and save one or two for an attempt. Not 100% sure if I'll really follow through or not this time, but it's nice to get it out somewhere and not just have it haunt my thoughts alone 24/7 when I can't even do it right now. I think about just doing it anyway everyday, but I can hold myself back...
