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akirat9

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Sep 23, 2022
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for the first time ive encountered sleep paralysis; something i thought of nothing until it happen
i think this came as an offset of preparing take SN; it was late so i figured i'd do it in the morning but not too log after i sleep i started having night terrors, and something i dont really remember but like the feeling something heavy pressing down on chest; i not move or speak, no matter how hard i try. it took like all strength just muster one cry and awake
so this is what my pain has brought now, misery in the form of night terrors . i cant really sleep anymore for the feeling of fear this is
 
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i'm sorry to hear what you went through. as someone who has frequent experience of sleep paralysis, i feel you. sleeping scares me too most of the time and it's saddening because i thought it'd be the only time i would be getting the peace i've been dreaming of. perhaps your sleep paralysis is a sick way of your SI kicking in.

i hope it doesn't happen again for you. we all deserve a good night sleep. however, if it does, drink some water and try to calm down as much as you can before heading back to sleep.

sending you hugs 🫂
 
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Hope:-)

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I've had this on a number of occasions. My last one was really recent. The weird part is that I felt so feverish upon finally being able to move that I got up in the night to get a Magnum icecream...not too weird in itself except I hadn't bought any Magnum icecream so I completely imagined I had some. Odd. I most often have this paralysis after a nightmare. Was this your first experience of one? X
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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That sounds really horrible, to me it's terrifying how life can torture people in so many ways. Things like this just show that there is no real relief from suffering in this life, not even in sleep. I'm sorry that you are trapped in this situation.
 
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akirat9

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That sounds really horrible, to me it's terrifying how life can torture people in so many ways. Things like this just show that there is no real relief from suffering in this life, not even in sleep. I'm sorry that you are trapped in this situation.
it was torture. i only hear about not have happen
i remember seeing something terrifying before the intense feeling of something pressing down on ym chest became apparent. and i not move, i
i had force a scream that took all of my human might to do. why did i not take sn eariler? this is what happens when delay it
 
Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
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for the first time ive encountered sleep paralysis; something i thought of nothing until it happen
i think this came as an offset of preparing take SN; it was late so i figured i'd do it in the morning but not too log after i sleep i started having night terrors, and something i dont really remember but like the feeling something heavy pressing down on chest; i not move or speak, no matter how hard i try. it took like all strength just muster one cry and awake
so this is what my pain has brought now, misery in the form of night terrors . i cant really sleep anymore for the feeling of fear this is
I get right terrors from reactive hypoglycemia. Woke drenched in sweat for eating sugar & wheat, maybe... Or the poison in my home...

Not sure about paralyzis but lack of B can do it maybe?

Is it mean that I kinda wish it will paralyze your lungs in your sleep? Well, I wish I could die of a heart attack in my sleep. So please don't take it as an insult.
I've had this on a number of occasions. My last one was really recent. The weird part is that I felt so feverish upon finally being able to move that I got up in the night to get a Magnum icecream...not too weird in itself except I hadn't bought any Magnum icecream so I completely imagined I had some. Odd. I most often have this paralysis after a nightmare. Was this your first experience of one? X
Ice cream in the middle of the night... That sounds like a plan to get reactive hypoglycemia. Delucious plan. If you get night sweats like me... Yeah ...
 
On Replay

On Replay

What a day What a day
Sep 23, 2022
279
I've only had one experience of something like this. Though it wasn't like what majority of people who have experienced sleep paralysis. With the pressure being on their chest and what not

I'm a believer (I've said it before and I know many don't agree) but anyway .

Someone shook me out of my sleep by my shoulders , I looked up and saw but there was no face. Only the feeling that I already knew who it was. I was afraid and felt the tears falling down my face. I tried to make noise , to scream ? To talk ? I'm not sure , but could only get out muffles. I couldn't talk.

Then He walked to the left to my front door and left me. (At the time I was sleeping on my couch that was right next to my door)

I remember being afraid but still didn't want them to leave … only time I've ever experienced something like that in my "sleep" it felt very real
 
Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
761
i'm sorry to hear what you went through. as someone who has frequent experience of sleep paralysis, i feel you. sleeping scares me too most of the time and it's saddening because i thought it'd be the only time i would be getting the peace i've been dreaming of. perhaps your sleep paralysis is a sick way of your SI kicking in.

i hope it doesn't happen again for you. we all deserve a good night sleep. however, if it does, drink some water and try to calm down as much as you can before heading back to sleep.

sending you hugs 🫂
So this is what it is. It's begun to happen to me in recent years. (I'm fifty-two.) I sometimes have to make a great effort to start breathing again. I _have_ hoped that I might die this way sometime, but I certainly wouldn't want to be conscious for it, and it seems I inevitably would.
 
burglarlydante

burglarlydante

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Apr 30, 2020
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My first sleep paralysis I was 4 and was sleeping with my "father" and step mother
They took advantage of me and abused me, I couldn't move, they violated me when I needed their help
 
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lionetta12

Just a random person
Aug 5, 2022
1,233
for the first time ive encountered sleep paralysis; something i thought of nothing until it happen
i think this came as an offset of preparing take SN; it was late so i figured i'd do it in the morning but not too log after i sleep i started having night terrors, and something i dont really remember but like the feeling something heavy pressing down on chest; i not move or speak, no matter how hard i try. it took like all strength just muster one cry and awake
so this is what my pain has brought now, misery in the form of night terrors . i cant really sleep anymore for the feeling of fear this is
Since I have PTSD, I have some crazy nightmares mostly every night and they can be pretty scary at times. I have heard about sleep paralysis from some friends who had it a long time ago and night terrors, and the whole experience that they went through really frightened me. I cannot imagine how horrible that might be and how terrifying it is. It's one of my biggest fears to ever end up experiencing that. I feel awful for anyone that's had to go through this.
 

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