Sick of being treated like trash because of my looks

[iwantoutx]

I'm so sick of this life, I am literally unable to live a normal life just because of my looks.
I fear going outside even to run simple errands because I know I will be treated like shit by everyone, even if I try my best to act as nice as I can.
I used to be so delusional in high school, thinking "I'm still so young" and such, I don't even think I realized how ugly I was even at that time.
I'm now 21 and nothing has changed, if anything it got worse.
I got a job this year that allowed me to get my nose done, skin fixed and lip filler, yet I still look like a 0.1 out of 10 because of my stupidly big jaw and crooked smile.
I can't make any friends, can't get into relationships, I'm always like a ghost.
Even at work I get blamed for shit I didn't even do simply because I'm the only ugly person in my office. It seems like the pretty ones are always trying to find a reason to blame me, because ugly=dirty, sneaky, untrustworthy and so on.
I honestly don't know how much longer I can go on like this, these are supposed to be the best years of my life, I should be at my peak attractiveness by now, instead I look hideous.
I can't imagine how I will look like in 20 years, but I most certainly will be already gone by then.

 

[Oreki]

Some workplaces are just toxic, with people constantly projecting their insecurities onto others. In my opinion, it's not about looks, but about audacity. I've noticed that those who have been in the 'game' longer are better at maintaining their own face, even when it's immoral, they don't want to disadvantage themselves, so they often shift their mistakes onto others. This can happen to anyone. The hard truth is that you have to be able to set boundaries. The problem is, good people often have to come to this realization on their own, because we just don't operate that way. Honestly, I could give you many reasons why they end up blaming you, and none of it has anything to do with your appearance