Yes and no. I have several younger siblings and I feel like the worst older sister in the world. They deserve so much better. At the same time I know they'd never be able to recover from my suicide. I lost my step-sister last year, she shot herself, and one of the main reasons I'm still here is because I know my siblings would never be able to recover, even though I know it would probably be better for them to not have me around. They're 10-12 years old. I'm not a good sister at all, I'm pretty sure I've already traumatized them with my mental instability:) But yet they love me and adore me and I feel so fucking bad. But like I said, despite the fact that I'm 100% sure that they'd be better off without me, I also know that they'd never understand or accept that, and that really sucks.