Venting SI once again

[Minsu]

I don't know how to beat SI.. everytime I start thinking about ctb, my SI kicks in pretty hard.

Thoughts like "you won't exist anymore, everything you know and have experienced will be gone forever, you'll never talk to your parents anymore etc." comes up right away and then my anxiety goes through the roof.

I don't get how people, who overcame their SI, did so..

 

[ClownCringe]

Its so fucked, having a partner to keep eachother on track seems like the strat. as messed up as that sounds..

 

[Lulzacruel]

people like to overcome SI in different ways

you may want to search up threads relating to methods

i personally like listening to sad music to put my brain in the mood for depression

 

[Jealous Blackheart]

If you're asked to choose between your two favorite foods, you're going to have a difficult time.
If you're trying to choose a movie to watch out of a thousand, you may end up choosing nothing.
If you only had one movie, the choice makes itself.

When there's nothing to salvage in your life, when there's no choice to make, when you have nothing to miss or lose, it becomes much easier.
I wrote about this in a thread called Doubting. It's about SI and not being able to complete from a place of compassion if you care to read it. It's a long post.

 

[ipmanwc0]

Its so fucked, having a partner to keep eachother on track seems like the strat. as messed up as that sounds..

why is it messed up

 

[Ashe]

I don't know how to beat SI.. everytime I start thinking about ctb, my SI kicks in pretty hard.

Thoughts like "you won't exist anymore, everything you know and have experienced will be gone forever, you'll never talk to your parents anymore etc." comes up right away and then my anxiety goes through the roof.

I don't get how people, who overcame their SI, did so..

Alcohol or some kind of drug that allows you to loosen up in my experience and usually dampens my SI

 

[FuneralCry]

It certainly is like the survival instinct just exists to prolong suffering and keep us trapped here, I find it so awful how it's so unnecessarily difficult to die, it really should be much more straightforward.

 

[Endoflifecomestoall]

Its so fucked, having a partner to keep eachother on track seems like the strat. as messed up as that sounds..

Do you want to be responsible for someone else's death?

Alcohol or some kind of drug that allows you to loosen up in my experience and usually dampens my SI

If it mixes with your method to ctb then perhaps not