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XdragonsoulX
Vengeance Incarnate
- Apr 13, 2022
- 128
Hi all, so last week I stood at the edge of a bridge wanting to jump into traffic (unreliable but was impulsive) ended up walking away to talk to a friend, and the cops came. They did a wellness check but decided I was well enough to take myself home and didn't file a report. I'm scared of being sectioned bc of it and I told my partner everything the next night bc my mind literally snapped. I have my therapy appointment tomorrow and my psych appointment the following day, he said he is gonna write what happened and to tell my therapist everything. If they know I attempted I'll definitely be sectioned. So this morning being afraid still of it i decided I have to try today earlier (with partial) and tonight (gonna try full) (since it didn't work and i had to work). My rope came undone at first and each time i would get close to blacking out I would wake back up. I've gotten my carotids before but now it's not working. I have a different rope than the one I was able to get my carotids with before, it's skinnier and a little more rough than my old rope but my old one was found by my partner and thrown away. Should I get another rope?
If i don't succeed, and end up having to face them tomorrow, should I tell them, and how do I tell them? If I get sectioned the rest of my life falls apart and I'm barely hanging on as it is….
If i don't succeed, and end up having to face them tomorrow, should I tell them, and how do I tell them? If I get sectioned the rest of my life falls apart and I'm barely hanging on as it is….