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ignorableaurochs

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Dec 27, 2024
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I see my psych on Friday. Had a query, please.

For context, I have been unwell since I was 14, tried many different meds and therapies, nothing has helped much. 5 (fairly impulsive) attempts since I was 16, I'm 29 now.

Told myself I'd finish [redacted thing] before I go but being so mentally disabled has made [redacted thing] take longer than expected. I'm in constant mental pain and have been making plans. These plans became more concrete in 2023, but I keep putting them off because I have to finish [thing]. I am only getting more unwell by the day.

Been seeing this psychiatrist since 2022 and he has not been very helpful. Put me on meds that made me feel awful and refused to refer me for any more therapy. Then took me off the meds and told me to go to the gym more (I barely get out of bed most days). Other issues I won't get into. He knows I experience ideation but not about the extent of the plans - I always downplay it.

So, I'm not convinced that he is going to be very helpful. And I don't think there is anything he can do to change my mind - I still want to die. I just don't know if being honest about this will help me in any way, or if it will have potential negative consequences.

What I really want is to reduce my pain and suffering for a few months so I can complete [redacted thing], after which I plan to finally die. What are the likely consequences of me disclosing this to a psychiatrist? I do not want to tell him the planned method because I do not want him to stop me.

Thank you for listening. Sorry if the typing is bad. I'm feeling cognitively pretty foggy.
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
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Hard to tell what he will say or do if he isn't helpful. But beware on what you say, or you could end up being sanctioned to a happy house.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
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Involuntary psych ward stay speedrun any%
 
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TinyGuy

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Aug 30, 2024
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Do not tell to a psychiatrist your suicide plans EVER.They will send people to ur house and u will go to a psych ward which might make u feel much worse.
 
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ignorableaurochs

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Dec 27, 2024
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Thanks for the feedback everyone. I guess I'm in so much pain I kind of don't care if they section me, because I feel like they can't keep me in there forever and I'll just continue with my plans as soon as I get out. But it will probably interfere with my plans to do [thing] which is what is keeping me here, I guess. This stuff is so frustrating. I feel so lost.
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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NO!
There are 2 levels of suicidality.
The first is suicidal ideation...random thoughts of suicide. Its a warning to psych staff.
The second is a suicide plan. I don't know what country you're in but in the US, psych staff are mandated reporters. I was a psych nurse & the licensing board keeps their hand on your license & if someone dies & they find it wasn't reported they quickly yank your license. You will wind up in a psych ward on an involuntary hold.
Be as honest as you can but keep in mind what you just cannot tell them. After all you wouldn't go to a cop to admit you robbed a store.
You can tell them you're feeling down but say nothing about a plan.🤗🌹💔
 
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ignorableaurochs

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Dec 27, 2024
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Thanks all. I didn't actually see your last reply before my appointment this morning. I was fairly honest (without specifying methods) and it honestly seemed like he didn't care.

He also told me that meds would not work for me after trying so many and he did not want to refer me for therapy either, for similar reasons. So I have to keep trying this 'behavioural activation' which is basically 'attempt to get out of bed and brush your teeth every day'. I have failed that for the last 8 weeks and I'm frustrated that I have been left with no support, but this has only solidified my plans.

I am going to try some shrooms as a last resort and then that's it. Thank you all again for the advice.
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

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Mar 18, 2024
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If you truly want to successfully CTB, tell no one. If your hoping to have your mind changed, or be talked out of it then sure. Imho
 
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ignorableaurochs

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Dec 27, 2024
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I was not hoping to have my mind changed so much as just convince him that I need some extra support for the next few months, because I need to finish this thing and I can't when I'm so ill. But oh well. He didn't believe me (or didn't care) and it has just confirmed my conclusion that I'm beyond medical help.
 
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human909

human909

I just want peace
Dec 30, 2024
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if you want to live and have extra protection sure go ahead but if you want to truly ctb do not do it because they just going to send the police over for watch.
 
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ignorableaurochs

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if you want to live and have extra protection sure go ahead but if you want to truly ctb do not do it because they just going to send the police over for watch.
I only want to live for the next few months. Anyway, I did tell him (just did not specify method) and he did not care or even offer me any treatment, let alone a police visit. I guess it depends a lot on your psychiatrist.
 
ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
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I only want to live for the next few months. Anyway, I did tell him (just did not specify method) and he did not care or even offer me any treatment, let alone a police visit. I guess it depends a lot on your psychiatrist.
Yeah mental health providers can be blasé sometimes. I told my psychologist once that I felt suicidal and that I planned to drive my car at top speed into a bridge support pillar. She just said everybody can have suicidal thoughts like that, no biggie, just get some more exercise. 🙄

It's too bad he gave up on meds for you. Meds never worked for me until I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder this year, and now I finally have some that are effective but it's not all it's cracked up to be. There are a lot of side effects, the depression is still there, and I still want to CTB for so many reasons that meds couldn't possibly fix. So maybe you actually dodged a bullet. Still it sucks to not be supported.
 
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RiverOfLife

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Nov 7, 2024
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I did tell my psychiatrist that I was suicidal, but that's because I wanted to be talked out of it.
Which is probably just as well, because my chosen method was cutting my wrists and that would not have ended well.
 
TheRottingContinues

TheRottingContinues

Low consciousness
Aug 23, 2023
89
Please don't, last time i did that i was shoved to the psyche ward turbo efficiency
 
maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
1,228
Shrooms could help. If you think thru what you want from the shroom experience before taking them (you intention) they can be very helpful in making changes to our psyche. 🤗🌹💔
 
Kanashii

Kanashii

Dying is your latest fashion.
Mar 16, 2023
55
Definitely not a good idea as you could end up in a psych ward or much worse. Beware of what you say as I saw another person in this thread say. You don't want to make things worse for yourself. However, I hope you manage to find peace. <3
 
kitia973

kitia973

我亦定山河
Dec 24, 2024
88
No. If you have a concrete and effective plan, you will definitely face involuntary hospitalization. I have tried before, and it was torture.
 
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Maod72

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Jan 22, 2025
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I think you have to. I told my psychiatrist that his mission was to keep me alive while my mom still lives.
 
Tortured_empath

Tortured_empath

Arcanist
Apr 7, 2019
487
People will say no but I will say maybe
 

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