Should i tell my former friends before i kill myself?

[lovelydeath]

I kinda want to tell my former friends by posting a status or to a mutual discord server(just words) right before i die. I know they left me because im worthless and thats not necessarily their fault but they still made me suffer more in the way they left. either by telling me bad things about myself with very little empathy, or disappearing on me and not responding to messages. I also want all the people to know on social media since they all stopped interacting with me there when that was my only source of social interaction keeping me sane. I know I should die because I will keep getting hurt, but i feel like i want the people who hurt me to know too. My current friends dont necessarily need to know since I feel like they went about not liking me in a understanding way. What do you think? I know its kinda messed up but… i just wanna feel like theres some justice in the world for once

 

[GasMonkey]

What if they call the emergency services fast and they save you mid-attempt, leaving you alive with permanent brain damage?

 

[Synrelia]

whether you intend or not, telling someone you're killing yourself is gonna leave them blaming themselves. and it seems you want people who've hurt you to feel pain and anguish over costing you your life. that doesn't sound like someone who's ready to leave this world behind, it sounds like you've got a lot of pent up anger and you feel the only way to get someone to see you is to do something drastic like kill yourself.

if you want to feel like there's some justice in the world, telling the people that have hurt you in some way that you're killing yourself, is not one of them. they will most likely laugh at you and accuse you of gaslighting, etc. etc. fuelling your ideology that killing yourself truly will be the only way to finally get people's attention onto you.

announcing your on social media/friends will just get you stopped, which is probably for the best. it sounds like you have a lot of things to mentally overcome and face before your time in this world is up, but that's on you

 

[FuneralCry]

I would never see it as being a good idea telling people about ctb plans in advance in this anti suicide society, but I don't believe that those people would care anyway. But anyway it's up to you what you should do.

 

[lovelydeath]

whether you intend or not, telling someone you're killing yourself is gonna leave them blaming themselves. and it seems you want people who've hurt you to feel pain and anguish over costing you your life. that doesn't sound like someone who's ready to leave this world behind, it sounds like you've got a lot of pent up anger and you feel the only way to get someone to see you is to do something drastic like kill yourself.

if you want to feel like there's some justice in the world, telling the people that have hurt you in some way that you're killing yourself, is not one of them. they will most likely laugh at you and accuse you of gaslighting, etc. etc. fuelling your ideology that killing yourself truly will be the only way to finally get people's attention onto you.

announcing your on social media/friends will just get you stopped, which is probably for the best. it sounds like you have a lot of things to mentally overcome and face before your time in this world is up, but that's on you

whether you intend or not, telling someone you're killing yourself is gonna leave them blaming themselves. and it seems you want people who've hurt you to feel pain and anguish over costing you your life. that doesn't sound like someone who's ready to leave this world behind, it sounds like you've got a lot of pent up anger and you feel the only way to get someone to see you is to do something drastic like kill yourself.

if you want to feel like there's some justice in the world, telling the people that have hurt you in some way that you're killing yourself, is not one of them. they will most likely laugh at you and accuse you of gaslighting, etc. etc. fuelling your ideology that killing yourself truly will be the only way to finally get people's attention onto you.

announcing your on social media/friends will just get you stopped, which is probably for the best. it sounds like you have a lot of things to mentally overcome and face before your time in this world is up, but that's on you

It sucks that I have no close friends to talk to it about without them thinking im gaslighting them. cause everybody left me.

 

[Synrelia]

people come and go in life. we make mistakes, we lose people. it's up to us to meet new ones and try to not repeat past experiences. your past actions may have set an unpleasant misconception in these 'friends' of yours. it's up to you to cut them off, and find new people, and find a new you.

i know this may be hard to hear but. at the end of the day, the only person that has been with you from the day you were born, and will be with you until the day you die, will be you and you only. you only have yourself to trust and depend on. this cycle of loneliness and separation anxiety stems from not having a foundation with your own self worth. in simpler terms, how can you expect others to love you if you can't love yourself even a tiny bit?

you will make new friends. you will find good people who won't leave you. you will be able to ask for people's time and you'll find people who won't mock you for your issues or insecurities. but you need to set that foundation first in yourself, reaffirm these things, and then seek out other people. life is a trial and error, and it's in your hands.

i may be a stranger, but i have faith in you. i see in you an old version of me as a child. it does get better. it sucks you have no one now, but you have yourself. and you have been the one getting yourself through this shit everyday, that's something to be proud of.

 

[Lavander 230]

It sucks that I have no close friends to talk to it about without them thinking im gaslighting them. cause everybody left me.

Can you think of a reason why do you think everyone left you?

 

[headcase95]

I must say I think it's probably a bad idea to tell anyone about your plans on social media since they might stop you, but you can always schedule an email to be sent to someone after you're gone and tell them to tell the ones who deserted you what you felt about them.

 

[hellispink]

They are your former friends for a reason. They didn't value you. And they don't care at all. Why letting them know if they don't care? Just for them to have gossip to know? I wouldn't tell em them shit. I would let them in the shithole they put themselves at.

 

[lovelydeath]

people come and go in life. we make mistakes, we lose people. it's up to us to meet new ones and try to not repeat past experiences. your past actions may have set an unpleasant misconception in these 'friends' of yours. it's up to you to cut them off, and find new people, and find a new you.

i know this may be hard to hear but. at the end of the day, the only person that has been with you from the day you were born, and will be with you until the day you die, will be you and you only. you only have yourself to trust and depend on. this cycle of loneliness and separation anxiety stems from not having a foundation with your own self worth. in simpler terms, how can you expect others to love you if you can't love yourself even a tiny bit?

you will make new friends. you will find good people who won't leave you. you will be able to ask for people's time and you'll find people who won't mock you for your issues or insecurities. but you need to set that foundation first in yourself, reaffirm these things, and then seek out other people. life is a trial and error, and it's in your hands.

i may be a stranger, but i have faith in you. i see in you an old version of me as a child. it does get better. it sucks you have no one now, but you have yourself. and you have been the one getting yourself through this shit everyday, that's something to be proud of.

I appreciate the honesty. Also thank you for having hope in me.

 

[AshClouds]

I kinda want to tell my former friends by posting a status or to a mutual discord server(just words) right before i die. I know they left me because im worthless and thats not necessarily their fault but they still made me suffer more in the way they left. either by telling me bad things about myself with very little empathy, or disappearing on me and not responding to messages. I also want all the people to know on social media since they all stopped interacting with me there when that was my only source of social interaction keeping me sane. I know I should die because I will keep getting hurt, but i feel like i want the people who hurt me to know too. My current friends dont necessarily need to know since I feel like they went about not liking me in a understanding way. What do you think? I know its kinda messed up but… i just wanna feel like theres some justice in the world for once

Personally no, they might call the paramedics. Maybe make the message cryptic…

 

[Das Nichts]

I would not do this personally. Imagine the feeling If someone tells you he's going to kill himself and you are powerless to do something because of distance etc.

Horrible.

 

[lovelydeath]

I would not do this personally. Imagine the feeling If someone tells you he's going to kill himself and you are powerless to do something because of distance etc.

Horrible.

Honestly, i would only feel bad for the few people who were nice to me. If it wasnt for them I would do it. Cause good. Let the others feel that way. I hate the others for ignoring me when I have no one.

 

[Das Nichts]

Honestly, i would only feel bad for the few people who were nice to me. If it wasnt for them I would do it. Cause good. Let the others feel that way. I hate the others for ignoring me when I have no one.

This is a special type of suicide. While I personally can relate to that and sometimes have such feelings too, I think it's
wrong. The decision should come from your inner self and you should be doing it for yourself, not to hurt other people.

I of course don't know your situation and have never been abused physically or mentally.

 

[ctb-soon]

I kinda want to tell my former friends by posting a status or to a mutual discord server(just words) right before i die. I know they left me because im worthless and thats not necessarily their fault but they still made me suffer more in the way they left. either by telling me bad things about myself with very little empathy, or disappearing on me and not responding to messages. I also want all the people to know on social media since they all stopped interacting with me there when that was my only source of social interaction keeping me sane. I know I should die because I will keep getting hurt, but i feel like i want the people who hurt me to know too. My current friends dont necessarily need to know since I feel like they went about not liking me in a understanding way. What do you think? I know its kinda messed up but… i just wanna feel like theres some justice in the world for once

A delayed message will give you the same options to feel you have told them, but they won't be calling the authorities until after you have CTB'd