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xeno112007

xeno112007

Void
Jul 18, 2025
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I am sorry if I am just seem like a bad person. There is someone, a girl I like. I dont know her or seen her its just online and only few days met. I dont know why maybe its because of ctb I feel like maybe a last try. But I know its wrong like I cant make them depressed like telling them I love them and just die. But I just cant. I dont know her. But still.I love her. She is recoverying from depression and suicidal. She may break if I tell her but still. I just cant. Why am I like this. Why am I evil.
 
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Saponification

Saponification

A piece of nothing
Jun 27, 2024
185
It sounds like you barely know her. From what you say in this post I'd say it would be unnecessary to tell her, but I am lacking a lot of context here, of course.
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
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Im going to guess that if you do communicate your plans as the first ever comment you stand a decent chance of being reported, and who knows what follows?
 
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Wolf Girl

Wolf Girl

"This place made me feel worthless"
Jun 12, 2024
652
Hey, I think you should look up the word "limerence." You're infatuated and excited and it's okay to feel that way, but it is inappropriate to push those emotions on her. Do NOT tell her "I love you," that is absolutely not okay. It's okay to say, "I feel like we have chemistry and I want to get to know you better."
 
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xeno112007

xeno112007

Void
Jul 18, 2025
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Hey, I think you should look up the word "limerence." You're infatuated and excited and it's okay to feel that way, but it is inappropriate to push those emotions on her. Do NOT tell her "I love you," that is absolutely not okay. It's okay to say, "I feel like we have chemistry and I want to get to know you better."
I think that sounds better so can you tell me more about what should I do?
Im going to guess that if you do communicate your plans as the first ever comment you stand a decent chance of being reported, and who knows what follows?
No I told her my plans and she gave some pro-life advices.
It sounds like you barely know her. From what you say in this post I'd say it would be unnecessary to tell her, but I am lacking a lot of context here, of course.
For context, I messaged her, because she is a girl around my age, I thought about I can be friendly while having one sided love. She wouldnt notice, I am sorry if I my intentions are ill I am really sorry. We have been chatting for three days 30 mins a day and she told me about her sad story and I told her about mine. Now she is also recoverying from depression. And I also told her about my ctb and she gave me some pro-life advices. Now I kinda feel like I should tell her I like her.
 
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DeadSouls

DeadSouls

Perpetually sad.
Jun 23, 2025
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Is it me? 😹🖤😹🖤 Just kidding, sorry.
 
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xeno112007

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Jul 18, 2025
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Is it me? 😹🖤😹🖤 Just kidding, sorry.
lol. Sorry but its not you soon you may find a one and he wont be suicidal. thanks ;)
Is it me? 😹🖤😹🖤 Just kidding, sorry.
Since you are a girl how would you react if that happen? a ctb boy says'Hey we have a chemistry why dont we know more about each other?'. I want to know common reaction before going to do anything.Sorry its fine if you dont wanna answer.thanks.
 
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helencry

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Jul 20, 2025
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Go talk to her then mate, see if she can love you back
 
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UtopianSoliloquies

UtopianSoliloquies

Act 3 Scene 1
Jan 21, 2023
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I've been in a similar situation to you in the past, though in my case I knew her as an acquaintance for a bit before, but I recommend you talk to her straightforwardly. Tell her you have romantic feels for her and ask she thinks you two could make something of it. In my case, it didn't work out in the end but I never regretted what I did or how I went about it. I think you should definitely tell her, just make sure you're also mentally ready to take no for an answer, meaning that you won't CTB specifically as a result of her saying no.

I remember when I felt something probably similar to what you're feeling right now, and I wish you a great deal of luck.
 
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xeno112007

Void
Jul 18, 2025
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I've been in a similar situation to you in the past, though in my case I knew her as an acquaintance for a bit before, but I recommend you talk to her straightforwardly. Tell her you have romantic feels for her and ask she thinks you two could make something of it. In my case, it didn't work out in the end but I never regretted what I did or how I went about it. I think you should definitely tell her, just make sure you're also mentally ready to take no for an answer, meaning that you won't CTB specifically as a result of her saying no.

I remember when I felt something probably similar to what you're feeling right now, and I wish you a great deal of luck.
thanks I will tell her and be ready to ascept no.thanks.
 
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naookoo128

naookoo128

Student
Jul 13, 2025
127
Go talk to her then mate, see if she can love you back

If you really want to go today, then please be very carefull with that.
 
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naookoo128

Student
Jul 13, 2025
127
Will you pls explain that further?I cant understand.
I mean ofc I dont want to tell you what to do, I know nothing about your life. But it just made me kinda nervous knowing that she is/was suicidal and depressed, and you are thinking about ctb´ing today but you would also like to talk to her before that. Just wanted to say, maybe also think about how it could affect her if you ctb soon.
 
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xeno112007

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Jul 18, 2025
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I mean ofc I dont want to tell you what to do, I know nothing about your life. But it just made me kinda nervous knowing that she is/was suicidal and depressed, and you are thinking about ctb´ing today but you would also like to talk to her before that. Just wanted to say, maybe also think about how it could affect her if you ctb soon.
I am confused I dont know what to do.
 
naookoo128

naookoo128

Student
Jul 13, 2025
127
I am confused I dont know what to do.
I know man, it sucks... I´m sorry, I really dont want to confuse you even more! But if you want both, talking to her to find out if she likes you back, but also ctb, then I think you should not rush it, especially the ctb. Who knows, maybe it works out and your connection with her will grow and it will make you feel better, maybe she even gets you with her "pro-life"-energy, haha. Maybe try to be open for something like that. The world is cruel but good things can happen. Take care, I wish you luck! 🫂
And I want to say, you dont seem to be a bad person, not at all!
 
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DeadSouls

DeadSouls

Perpetually sad.
Jun 23, 2025
109
lol. Sorry but its not you soon you may find a one and he wont be suicidal. thanks ;)

Since you are a girl how would you react if that happen? a ctb boy says'Hey we have a chemistry why dont we know more about each other?'. I want to know common reaction before going to do anything.Sorry its fine if you dont wanna answer.thanks.
If I felt similar,I would respond by telling him that. Anything can happen. 🖤

Best wishes for whatever you choose. Xoxox
 
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