Should i leave my very young famiy...?

[OneLastHit]

I am 21 Male i have a kid (F 15 months old) with a girl i love to death who i've been with since 16. She has CPTSD and also has the same views as i do on life and most of you folks on here (BTW i have been lurking for a few months and this is my first post, you guys make me feel accepted like we'll all have a big party on the other side) we both drink vodka maybe a half litre a day and also smoke tabacco mixed with weed (2g's a day[€200]a week) from our bong, we make €367 combined . I want out of life as i feel i've experienced enough. I've had many other drugs(MDMA, DMT, MUSHROOMS, COKE, KETAMINE, SPEED.,to be specific) and the day to day life is painfully boring. What would you do ?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I lay in bed all and eat when I am bored.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like only you can make those decisions as it is your life, but I'm sorry that you are in this difficult situation. It must be so hard having young children yet wanting to leave this world. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[OneLastHit]

I lay in bed all and eat when I am bored.

No cope or cope. Its human nature to do everything we can to survive, but the one thing people miss understand or maybe just dont see. Is that the one guarantee is that we wont. Thank you for the reply, my first post.

 

[Angi]

i have a kid

I think you should be a good-enough parent. Kids really need this, or their existence is turned into engulfing pain, as your girlfriend and you seem to know very well. This gives you two options that I am aware of:

1) Clean up your life, get sober and be there for her, all the time, for the next 17 years at least. Get help with this, parenting is hard.
2) Give her to someone else. So many people are looking to adopt babies. Once she gets old enough to not look as cute as a baby anymore, her chances drop immensely.

Please give your child a chance. Especially since you seem to know what it means to be dealt a shitty hand in life.

 

[deleted]

This is so sad man, follow the advice above and try to stay sober, I understand what it's like to be addicted and the need to get out of reality for a few moments and be pain free, if you're going to keep living you need to get help to kick the addictions and start thinking about your daughter's future

 

[Spiritual survivor]

I am 21 Male i have a kid (F 15 months old) with a girl i love to death who i've been with since 16. She has CPTSD and also has the same views as i do on life and most of you folks on here (BTW i have been lurking for a few months and this is my first post, you guys make me feel accepted like we'll all have a big party on the other side) we both drink vodka maybe a half litre a day and also smoke tabacco mixed with weed (2g's a day[€200]a week) from our bong, we make €367 combined . I want out of life as i feel i've experienced enough. I've had many other drugs(MDMA, DMT, MUSHROOMS, COKE, KETAMINE, SPEED.,to be specific) and the day to day life is painfully boring. What would you do ?

U are very important to this child and the mother of your child. It would be very tragic if u left those who rely on u. Is there more going on as to why u want to exit besides boredom? Im sorry if this is not what u want to hear. U have so much to live for tho. Maybe try to quit the drugs and u will be able to cope better. Could be the drinking and heavy weed causing depression and apathy.

 

[Dizzylady80]

Just a suggestion, you could try pouring yourself into some special interest. Whether it be something that you could benefit from financially like car stuff, or to something you want to learn about or get better at, or devoting yourself to your kid and channeling your efforts there. Are you seeing a therapist? They could potentially help guide you a bit or give more informed suggestions. And maybe you could work together with your wife/gf to get better, if she's willing

 

[BigG91]

I am 21 Male i have a kid (F 15 months old) with a girl i love to death who i've been with since 16. She has CPTSD and also has the same views as i do on life and most of you folks on here (BTW i have been lurking for a few months and this is my first post, you guys make me feel accepted like we'll all have a big party on the other side) we both drink vodka maybe a half litre a day and also smoke tabacco mixed with weed (2g's a day[€200]a week) from our bong, we make €367 combined . I want out of life as i feel i've experienced enough. I've had many other drugs(MDMA, DMT, MUSHROOMS, COKE, KETAMINE, SPEED.,to be specific) and the day to day life is painfully boring. What would you do ?

I suggest you stick to smoking weed.
That's what I'd do.

Also i don't see what the problem is from your post. You want to leave them like abandon them or leave as in CTB ?

 

[come to dust]

Is there a reason you decided to start a family and have a child while suicidal and regularly using drugs?

No offence but irresponsible parents are the reason that a lot of people have a childhood full of suffering. Forcing someone to be born into this world isn't something to be done on a whim.

 

[msci4499]

Is there a reason you decided to start a family and have a child while suicidal and regularly using drugs?

No offence but irresponsible parents are the reason that a lot of people have a childhood full of suffering. Forcing someone to be born into this world isn't something to be done on a whim.

Agree, I don't want to preach, but now that you have kids, you have to be responsible
Suicide because we don't have the right to decide whether to be born or not
But it's your decision to have a baby, and you have to take responsibility

 

[JamieJambo]

dont do it

dont do it

Being a kid with parents who are young is hard enough, if one of them leaves that is really hard

 

[OneLastHit]

U are very important to this child and the mother of your child. It would be very tragic if u left those who rely on u. Is there more going on as to why u want to exit besides boredom? Im sorry if this is not what u want to hear. U have so much to live for tho. Maybe try to quit the drugs and u will be able to cope better. Could be the drinking and heavy weed causing depression and apathy.

For a bit of background I only smoke and drink since 19'. Well, stopped all other drugs anyways .

 

[JamieJambo]

For a bit of background I only smoke and drink since 19'. Well, stopped all other drugs anyways .

I don't want to lecture and you don't have to listen to me... But I used to cane the drugs and drink up until I was 28 and then I was able to stop, after a long hard talk to myself... Its been 10 years since. Life becomes way better, way more satisfying etc. It might be worth a go for you, especially since you have a kid. You can always take your life after, but might as well try things that still can be tried first and then see. Thats my two cents

 

[Weebster]

No you have a responsibility to not fuck up your child's life by killing yourself. Killing your self would be adding insult to injury (the injury being the act of bringing a life into this world).