So I have some real world information about the use of 9 mm handguns. My partner CTB with the use of a 9 mm handgun and a hollow point bullet. For what it's worth I will tell you what happened and what I saw. His passing is why I'm searching here for my planning to CTB when I'm ready. He was the most important person in my universe and I have never stopped loving him.
He hid the fact that he had a gun. We attended a therapy session the day before he CTB and the doctor asked him if he owned a gun. He lied and said no. I was in the room when he said this and looking back I should have know he was lying due to his attempt of a fake smile on his face when I knew emotion wise he felt completely without hope.
The next morning I woke up looking for him in a panic. I will save you the story of my emotional grief and daily pain.
He was found lying on his back in our yard. It was sunny out. When I fist saw him he was laying on the side of a hill with his head toward the top.
So here is the factual information without emotion. Again, he used a hollow point or hollow tipped 9 mm bullet. It appears from what I saw that he knew enough not to point the gun at his temple area. There are charts on this discussion board that show where parts of the brain are located. You should do your homework and look for this chart and further discussions of the areas of the brain. My partner was a details man and I'd bet he looked at charts on the internet to find where the brain is located to determine exactly where to point the gun. The damage area was above the temple and eyes, eye brows. Just above this area was a three to four inch wide hole from right to left across the entire forehead and into the hair line exposing the brain tissue. The hole was more of a trench. There is no way anyone would have survived what I saw. His trigger hand was laying by his side with his thumb and index finger clasped as if he was still pulling the trigger. The gun was not in his hand when I found him in this position. It was laying at his side. His facial expression and the clasping of the fingers makes me believe he died before he even heard the gun fire.
It is clear to me that a hollow point bullet has more than enough power to do significant damage. However, a regular 9 mm bullet should never be used. From everything I read it only pierces the skin and bone and does not break up to cause wide spread damage. Those who survive a 9 mm attempt appear to have used a regular 9 mm bullet.
Since my partners death I have purchased a similar 9 mm gun and hollow point bullets. This is one of many options I am considering to CTB. In the past I have asked members here about gun recoil as I have a fear of the gun firing and the bullet not coming out where I aimed resulting in the bullet not striking where it should. Small weak person here! I was informed that recoil does not happen until after the bullet leaves the gun. Therefore, the bullet should strike exactly where you aimed.
At one point this was my choice of CTB. However, now favoring the exit bag system as would rather just fall asleep forever.
Emotions back! It is difficult for me to write this information as I have many mixed feelings. Both about if I am honoring my partner and about you reading this. I never want to hurt any living thing! I wish I had something to write here instead that could give us all a reason to live a peaceful happy existence. Life, however, is not a fairytale. In looking back at my partners position in life towards the end I can see why he CTB. He tried everything he could to feel better but doctor after doctor failed him. No love from me or anyone else was enough to kill the devastating daily pain. In his final weeks and days he had a facial expression as if he was physically being tortured by some foreign government. He couldn't take it any more. To some degree I have made peace with his decision to end his life. He no longer feels daily pain. For that I am grateful. Now I hope to find the courage I need to be with him.