Venting shortish vent

[kkiwii]

i have no motivation to do anything. i just can not see a point in going on, im pushing thru rn, im bout to get some acid n molly tmrw so ill feel better soon ^^
my last job fired me for my scars even though id cover them up after they gave me a longer uniform and all the places ive gotten interviews for, like ik this sounds exaggerated but im being soooo fr rn, i swear the interviewees were side eyeing my scars. obvi i covor them if their fresh but im talking after they healed scars (i dont cut that deep normally bc quantity over depth helps me feel better) and so now ive been covering them up for the rest of the interviews i got but was rejected from them aswell (i suspect bc im a nervous person and i was studdering a bit in most of them, but mabey i have other things i need to work on). i feel like such a loser i cant find a job and im losing motivation to even apply bc ive applied to ~40 places since i got fired in february. im so tired and worn down bro idek wut to do anymore. i want to save up and get out of this awful house.. i just feel like im failing life ig