shock therapy failure

[xokittennn]

i really need help. i am at my wits end- i suffer from borderline personality disorder amongst many other diagnoses. ive struggled with mental health since i was a child & my first thought was that i didnt want to be here.

i wish in america they offered some sort of death with dignity program. i have been in therapy since i was 6 and still to this day. i have severe treatment resistant depression, and the ketamine nasal spray stopped working. now im doing shock therapy, and i STILL am depressed.

please, i really need help. ive read the threads and have stalked this page for months. can someone recommend a means in which to do a partial suspension if im like 200 pounds (female 5'2) from what ive gathered suspending is my best bet. i am just struggling to feel convidence given my weight.

please help, im desperate

 

[ctb_warrior]

If you want to try recovery, this technique Havening can be useful


As far as looking for methods is concerned, i too have been browsing this site for the last 4 years.
Peaceful methods like N are difficult to access.
Most ppl have been using SN.
I myself tried partial hanging, but it didn't work despite trying for a week.
Gases like CO and inert gases are fast in case one can get access