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[fatalucia]

i need to go back to self harming because i am tired and have no other ways to cope. i can't wait for winter. nothing feels fun or worthwhile living for. i can never talk about how i feel to absolutely anybody. i think about killing myself everyday. i have been this way for over a decade. nobody takes me seriously. of course the thoughts keep me up at night so i have a bad time sleeping, well good night

 

[saddestbunny]

I hope you have good dreams

I understand how you feel, it can feel exhausting to even try talking to people

I relate to thinking about ctb everyday

 

[Unbelonging]

I understand, I also sh but I can't right now since it's the summer and I'm being forced to wear short clothing. As a result I am frustrated all the time and I feel exhausted and can't function so I just try not to think about anything and I just sleep. I'm sorry that you're facing this problem, I hope things get better for you, best wishes

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really dreadful suffering like that, I understand feeling so tired of existing here, there certainly is too much suffering in existing, to me there could never be any relief from suffering as long as I'm trapped here.

 

[fatalucia]

I understand, I also sh but I can't right now since it's the summer and I'm being forced to wear short clothing. As a result I am frustrated all the time and I feel exhausted and can't function so I just try not to think about anything and I just sleep. I'm sorry that you're facing this problem, I hope things get better for you, best wishes

i am some what of an insomniac and rely on pills. i understand the frustration from exhaustion. working all day then i come home and i'm out of energy to do anything. i'm grateful that you can sleep to take a break from thinking for a while.

 

[Aisley]

Everything about winter is the best. Every stupid little thing. Every time the summer solstice passes, I feel relief, knowing it's coming. You mentioned insomnia. The long nights are coming, where it's not a race against the sunrise that happens in the middle of the fucking night.

 

[fatalucia]

Everything about winter is the best. Every stupid little thing. Every time the summer solstice passes, I feel relief, knowing it's coming. You mentioned insomnia. The long nights are coming, where it's not a race against the sunrise that happens in the middle of the fucking night.

autumn is my favorite season. winter is my direct next favorite. hot food feels heartier in my stomach. clothes aren't sticking to my sweat making me overstimulated. everything's slowed down and i like that better.
the only plagued part of sleeping is being forced to hurry up and fall asleep. i struggle so much with it. i've built a tolerance to melatonin tabs so i hope sleeping pills keep working.