ur awesome i love that first song, i played it sped up for like a month straight, cool feelings from it almost like a good end of the journey bad ending anthem, its top 5 with what i might play if ctb comes (my little dark age)
idk seems like the silence from ur friend is a bit inconsiderate, no matter how hard the reply something must be said, its a sense of shared pain and understanding, im genuinely sorry u experienced that
should i watch akira? im always afraid of the gloomy retro style some older animes have, but its motivating seeing u loved it enough to put it on a wall
never tried shrooms, recently got drunk for the first time and tbh i hated it, its like escapism thats so obviously disconnected that a sense of sad nonexistent force for advancement and progression, everything is blocked, maybe its also because of the company i had when drinking.
my discord is notresuss if u feel more comfortable talking there at any point
yo, you dig little dark age? i love the lyrics... i used to listen to it when going to sleep, like a 1h loop of it...
some of the stuff i share might not have so much to do w suicide n all but, its just like... yknow, stuff i like
n yeah, i felt the same way about my friend...
but, yknow...i try to be understanding
hes... not in the same circunstances n all
n yeah, you should totally watch akira, matter o fact, we could watch it together maybe, ive also got a discord
as for shrooms, well... lets just say, its way, way, waaaaay different than anything else you ever tried...
coz see, like... w alcohol, weed etc... it changes you abit, rite? or alot
w alcohol, it lowers your inhibitions, you talk more freely, you dont think twice as much
w weed, its another vibe etc
but w shrooms... hmmm
shrooms are... sacred
not in a religious sense, but... like... its hard to explain
each experience is different from another, even coming from the same person
theyre... kind of a secret
as in... well, its really tough to put it in words
like... you retain your consciousness, youre aware the whole time, but... youre also presented w this... weird, weird knowledge
that seems to come out of beyond you, exterior
as if, something, or someone (s) are reaching out to you, talkin to you, idk
all i gotta say is, you can use it as a party drug, have a good laugh n all but... that aint whats it really about
its all about... introspection, n then, beyond that...
but, well uhm... i dont wanna advocate for anything here, yknow how it is... if you ever do it, please do it safely
as in, w people you trust or, in a setting youre well confortable with coz, that shit will open your mind, for reals
weather you like it or not, so... yeah
alcohol though, is the worst... its honestly awful
its a depressive drug... makes you feel like shit afterwards, n its not just the hangovers
the only reason ive been drinkin, is coz im at rock bottom atm
alcohol sucks though...
its great, as a "social lubricant", i guess, sure
helps moving things along but, as the saying goes "booze comes in, n the truth comes out"
gotta watch out for it, especially around people
so... i was chating w this random dood tonight, random chatroom...
we got alot in common n all, music taste etc but...
after acouple hours talkin, i opened up n shared my situation
n guess what? yeaaaaap...
dood went cold on me, said he suddenly "had to leave", blocked me
coz see, heres the thing, right?...
you cant really talk to strangers about suicide... they just dont get it, n they dont want anything to do w it
hence again, the reason why im here...
hopefuly trying to connect, reaching out...
its the best i can do, i guess...
ido just like not to feel totally alone, before the time comes
...
ah, well...
n heres another song
