Story Share yourself before you CTB

[Everlong]

I find myself feeling very nostalgic so close to CTB. I'm thoroughly going through old stuff and came across my discharge paperwork from a psych ward stay. This was a poem I wrote to a young girl who self harmed being a a victim of sexual assault. She was young enough to be my daughter and we clicked instantly.
Anywho, I thought it might be cool to open up a thread to share any art with pictures or some in written form like lyrics or poetry. Anything that is meaningful to you that you may be proud of or never shared in the real world.
All entries are welcome and should be safe from negative replies. Here's mine…

The Beautiful One
When you look in the mirror,
tell me what you see.
Better yet, keep to yourself.
It only matters to thee.

Now ask yourself, Am I brave? Am I scared?
Am I lovely? Alone? Or mean?
Is it all or nothing? Do I give a fuck?
Or something else in between?

A mirror can only tell us
about the person's outside.
As Twain once wrote, "It's the thoughts, deeds and words,
that make him up inside.

How'd we get to this point?
Was it our fault, abuse or stress?
Whatever the cause, who's fault or reason,
You're safe. So let's work on this mess.

Listen to others as I did,
not the details but their pain.
Their specifics are inconsequential.
But our demons are the same.

Nobody can understand me you say.
Bullshit! Now listen some more.
I've shared the pain and potential fate
of strangers with issues galore.

No one should try to measure the pain,
or impact it has on another.
I call it the grind. It's real and it's thorough.
And it's healing requires a brother.

We all have our moments of ugly.
And some moments it isn't pretty.
But it isn't perfection,
it's progress we're after.
So nothing you share is petty.

Now look back at the mirror,
straight into the eyes.
And continue
'til the healing comes.

A smile's contagious,
even to yourself.
Then repeat,
"I'm the beautiful one."

 

[Girl-shaped Wound]

I'm sorry, i don't have anything to post yet of my own... But I love your poem so much, I wish someone wrote something like this for me. That girl was so lucky to have you in her life and I bet that you helped her tremendously! I hope that she is enjoying her life, and I hope that you will find peace. Beauty, kindness and wisdom of shine through your words

 

[Littlewittlelight]

Edited it out I would keep it to myself :(

I am sorry this poem is beautiful. You wanted to help her regardless of your situation. It's rare to see such people in today's world. Can I ask How you personally feel about it? If someone asked about what I wrote I don't know how I would respond but I have feelings for each poem I write. I really loved your spirit my sufferer and the loss is always so huge we may not know eachother and not related but i feel for you and I am noone to decide how great the loss would be and I have nothing more to say you seem like a good person that's all I wanted to let you know. I hope whatever happens it happens for best.

 

[Everlong]

Edited it out I would keep it to myself :(

I am sorry this poem is beautiful. You wanted to help her regardless of your situation. It's rare to see such people in today's world. Can I ask How you personally feel about it? If someone asked about what I wrote I don't know how I would respond but I have feelings for each poem I write. I really loved your spirit my sufferer and the loss is always so huge we may not know eachother and not related but i feel for you and I am noone to decide how great the loss would be and I have nothing more to say you seem like a good person that's all I wanted to let you know. I hope whatever happens it happens for best.

Your drawings are amazing! Yes, we are all happier when we pull others out. She was a beautiful girl and I watched over. Honestly, it was strange the connection I had. Her stories of assaults were so heartbreaking I was like an on edge father. I know that's strange. I have two daughters of my own and I guess I related it to them. I've shared that poem in inpatient during an extended stay. It made me feel so good to see people enjoy it. This forum is full of people like you and me that can't see the forest for the trees when it comes to ourselves. But our pain is so intense we empathize with others who experience it. I'm not puffing myself up. It's how suicidals are. This forum is amazing. Sadly, people who don't have our struggles miss our intentions completely turning us into devils. I like your spirit. Please share your writing if you have it. Like I said above, only positive comments.
Thank you for the lovely sentiments. I hope you find peace today. Chat soon…? I hope.

I'm sorry, i don't have anything to post yet of my own... But I love your poem so much, I wish someone wrote something like this for me. That girl was so lucky to have you in her life and I bet that you helped her tremendously! I hope that she is enjoying her life, and I hope that you will find peace. Beauty, kindness and wisdom of shine through your words

Thank you very much. I'm very much feeling vulnerable. I believe I may be close to the end and there's this wanting to let it all out. Good or bad. Scary or lovely. I hope, you too, find peace today. You made me feel loved. That's not my world right now but you busted through.
I started to feel foolish when nobody replied for a couple of days. You two came in and opened up. Bless you.

 

[Littlewittlelight]

Your drawings are amazing! Yes, we are all happier when we pull others out. She was a beautiful girl and I watched over. Honestly, it was strange the connection I had. Her stories of assaults were so heartbreaking I was like an on edge father. I know that's strange. I have two daughters of my own and I guess I related it to them. I've shared that poem in inpatient during an extended stay. It made me feel so good to see people enjoy it. This forum is full of people like you and me that can't see the forest for the trees when it comes to ourselves. But our pain is so intense we empathize with others who experience it. I'm not puffing myself up. It's how suicidals are. This forum is amazing. Sadly, people who don't have our struggles miss our intentions completely turning us into devils. I like your spirit. Please share your writing if you have it. Like I said above, only positive comments.
Thank you for the lovely sentiments. I hope you find peace today. Chat soon…? I hope.


Thank you very much. I'm very much feeling vulnerable. I believe I may be close to the end and there's this wanting to let it all out. Good or bad. Scary or lovely. I hope, you too, find peace today. You made me feel loved. That's not my world right now but you busted through.
I started to feel foolish when nobody replied for a couple of days. You two came in and opened up. Bless you.

Thank you so much and I appreciate everything you are feeling at the moment I am so sorry that noone replied but I could feel it through yours words and when someone is falling to pieces one day I would be feeling this one too as I am a person who let's everything out if they have a safe place. I can feel what you said noone replied and the loss is great I don't know how I would feel but humans feel about the world so strongly when they are on the verge and you talked to that girl you also have daughters. That girl had been tough times you would be feeling bad for her and I am glad you could I know it just makes the feeling more intense when you yourself have daughters or kids. I have seen your poetry I have witnessed the existence of some people through eyes some through this forum it isn't any different to me and things people did were very great I am noone to reward or say how great but they were and regardless of what I find everywhere I would say when people just do something for others that's one of the most beautiful things and those people who help when they are hurt they are strong and I can feel what you mean when you are on the verge you don't care about yourself as much because you have already striked your name from the list for some reasons else why would you even be on the verge. Somebody who is breaking down would never be able to hurt someone else. They are consequences of each other I feel(being on the verge and striking yourself from the list). I can empathize with a person who is suffering and be there that's all I can do. I wish everyone finds peace in some form.