Seriously thinking of jumping on Monday.

[It’s Time To Go]

I've chosen my bridge.

Fucking 5 & a half hour train ride, though.

Also 5 changes.

I'm really depressed, so lacking energy. The journey will take everything out of me.

Wish this bridge was closer.

My main method was thwarted, when I was a high risk missing person & the cunts got my tablets.

I can't take this place anymore.

I've always found jumping to be the ultimate way to go. It's the I'm not fucking about method. You know someone means it when they jump.

I've been on rooftops & a certain bridge, but was caught & sectioned. However, I'm hoping that my experience will help me overcome SI when the time comes.

Who else is contemplating jumping, and have you chosen your destination?

 

[CommitSudoku]

I'm not contemplating jumping seriously, my SI related to that is much too great. And maybe I prefer more hands-on methods, I don't know. Best wishes if you decide to pursue this or whatever you decide to do. I could never have that courage. A five and a half hour ride there seems exhausting as well, but maybe it could be nice in a way as it's your journey to escape this life.

 

[ocklepold]

I like the idea of jumping too. It takes courage, and is tinged with the heroic. I still think a gun is the most masculine method, but jumping is definitely second. However I haven't found anywhere (yet) that's high enough nearby.

Just make sure it's high enough, friend. According to Geo Stone 46 metres onto land / 76 metres into water is 95-98% effective.

 

[It’s Time To Go]

I'm not contemplating jumping seriously, my SI related to that is much too great. And maybe I prefer more hands-on methods, I don't know. Best wishes if you decide to pursue this or whatever you decide to do. I could never have that courage. A five and a half hour ride there seems exhausting as well, but maybe it could be nice in a way as it's your journey to escape this life.

I did think about the journey giving me time to reflect.

I could reminisce about when "life" was good, when it made sense.

Now I feel completely dead. My body just needs to catch up.

I'm experienced at attempting (mostly overdosing) so I can use the time to listen to music, and really trigger myself. Also I'm a people watcher, and I'd amuse myself at the people I see, aimlessly wandering through "life."

Gunshot is hardcore, but I've seen the faces of survivors and FUCK that!

I'll be jumping into water. I'd see it as cleansing my soul on my way to the next phase of my journey (I believe in reincarnation.)

There's something romantic about jumping.

 

[Someone123]

I've chosen my bridge.

Fucking 5 & a half hour train ride, though.

Also 5 changes.

I'm really depressed, so lacking energy. The journey will take everything out of me.

Wish this bridge was closer.

My main method was thwarted, when I was a high risk missing person & the cunts got my tablets.

I can't take this place anymore.

I've always found jumping to be the ultimate way to go. It's the I'm not fucking about method. You know someone means it when they jump.

I've been on rooftops & a certain bridge, but was caught & sectioned. However, I'm hoping that my experience will help me overcome SI when the time comes.

Who else is contemplating jumping, and have you chosen your destination?

I would if I had a high enough spot, preferably over water so that the water is a backup method- th egolden gate bridge is 99%, but it's alsmot impossible to jumpp there now iwth security, but something at least that heigt, ideally over water, makees sense to me (220 ft).

 

[pointlesssuffering]

I did think about the journey giving me time to reflect.

I could reminisce about when "life" was good, when it made sense.

Now I feel completely dead. My body just needs to catch up.

I'm experienced at attempting (mostly overdosing) so I can use the time to listen to music, and really trigger myself. Also I'm a people watcher, and I'd amuse myself at the people I see, aimlessly wandering through "life."

Gunshot is hardcore, but I've seen the faces of survivors and FUCK that!

I'll be jumping into water. I'd see it as cleansing my soul on my way to the next phase of my journey (I believe in reincarnation.)

There's something romantic about jumping.

Reincarnation is an interesting topic, I have a hard time grasping that something incorporeal like consciousness can die as well. However, if being reborn means you forget your past life, does it matter if you reincarnate? Who you are is dead, and you would in theory be a different human being, so why does it matter to you if reincarnation is real? Just something I've been grappling with about the afterlife, which I still somewhat believe to a degree. The person you are reborn as would be a stranger with your 'karma', it wouldn't actually be you. That's the biggest issue I have with reincarnation, in what sense does it matter if you reincarnate?

 

[It’s Time To Go]

Reincarnation is an interesting topic, I have a hard time grasping that something incorporeal like consciousness can die as well. However, if being reborn means you forget your past life, does it matter if you reincarnate? Who you are is dead, and you would in theory be a different human being, so why does it matter to you if reincarnation is real? Just something I've been grappling with about the afterlife, which I still somewhat believe to a degree. The person you are reborn as would be a stranger with your 'karma', it wouldn't actually be you. That's the biggest issue I have with reincarnation, in what sense does it matter if you reincarnate?

I'm going to be reunited with my tribe.

I know I was put down here to suffer, to experience what one human being can do to another.

This knowledge will be relayed back to my people.

I haven't taken their medication in about seven months, and I've been told I'm delusional. But everything is about perspective. I simply believe (know) that I have a higher level of consciousness than all of these so called fucking "professionals."

This place is not for me.

It's not home.

I also believe that everything you want is on the other side of fear, and there comes a time where you have to decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it.

 

[Someone123]

Reincarnation is an interesting topic, I have a hard time grasping that something incorporeal like consciousness can die as well. However, if being reborn means you forget your past life, does it matter if you reincarnate? Who you are is dead, and you would in theory be a different human being, so why does it matter to you if reincarnation is real? Just something I've been grappling with about the afterlife, which I still somewhat believe to a degree. The person you are reborn as would be a stranger with your 'karma', it wouldn't actually be you. That's the biggest issue I have with reincarnation, in what sense does it matter if you reincarnate?

I have seen some stories about reincarnation, I obviously don't know if they're true, where people were told in a different realm, our true home, that we were told what challenges we would face in this next life and that we agreed to it for the learning, or something like that. So the continuing consciousness does exist in another area, a place we often think of as the afterlife. But who knows if this is true.

 

[It’s Time To Go]

I have seen some stories about reincarnation, I obviously don't know if they're true, where people were told in a different realm, our true home, that we were told what challenges we would face in this next life and that we agreed to it for the learning, or something like that. So the continuing consciousness does exist in another area, a place we often think of as the afterlife. But who knows if this is true.

It truly is the biggest gamble one can take.

But I'm willing to go with my faith.

If I'm wrong, I'll just sleep forever. That'll do me just fine as insomnia is a c**t.

 

[Aboutblue]

I'm going to be reunited with my tribe.

I know I was put down here to suffer, to experience what one human being can do to another.

This knowledge will be relayed back to my people.

I haven't taken their medication in about seven months, and I've been told I'm delusional. But everything is about perspective. I simply believe (know) that I have a higher level of consciousness than all of these so called fucking "professionals."

This place is not for me.

It's not home.

I also believe that everything you want is on the other side of fear, and there comes a time where you have to decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it.

Please listen to the professionals if they are telling you that you are delusional. It would be travesty for you to kill yourself when it could have been prevented through medication and/or other means of symptom management. I know that probably comes across as preachy but you're saying some worrying stuff.

 

[It’s Time To Go]

Please listen to the professionals if they are telling you that you are delusional. It would be travesty for you to kill yourself when it could have been prevented through medication and/or other means of symptom management. I know that probably comes across as preachy but you're saying some worrying stuff.

I appreciate your compassion, but the "mental health service" is the most corrupt conglomerate on the globe.

I could tell you stories that would melt your heart.

I've been sectioned 25 times, where's the help?

They prey on the weak, they are lazy bastards, and they do it purely for the money.

Trust me, I've been though the system and have enough experience of it to know what I'm talking about.

 

[Aboutblue]

I appreciate your compassion, but the "mental health service" is the most corrupt conglomerate on the globe.

I could tell you stories that would melt your heart.

I've been sectioned 25 times, where's the help?

They prey on the weak, they are lazy bastards, and they do it purely for the money.

Trust me, I've been though the system and have enough experience of it to know what I'm talking about.

I'm sorry that's been your experience. That fucking sucks. I've been to psych wards twice involuntarily and voluntarily did an outpatient facility. The inpatient was ok besides me making it worse for myself the first go around bc I hate being locked up. The outpatient was really nice and the people very compassionate.

Personally medication was helpful for a while and now it just... Is. I can't tell if it does anything. But I have a feeling things would get worse if I stopped.

I'm just telling you my experience so you know where I'm coming from. I wish you had some of the positive experiences I did instead of the shit you must have dealt with.

I wish you the best.

 

[S like Siren]

I appreciate your compassion, but the "mental health service" is the most corrupt conglomerate on the globe.

Hands up for this....very well said!

 

[CandyCane]

I appreciate your compassion, but the "mental health service" is the most corrupt conglomerate on the globe.

I could tell you stories that would melt your heart.

I've been sectioned 25 times, where's the help?

They prey on the weak, they are lazy bastards, and they do it purely for the money.

Trust me, I've been though the system and have enough experience of it to know what I'm talking about.

Agree 100%

 

[FuneralCry]

Jumping sounds terrifying to me, I do not believe that I would ever be able to ctb that way. I have a fear of heights and I would be scared of it going wrong. I believe that someone must be really desperate to go through with that method. I do envy those with the courage for it though. I'm sorry that you are suffering so much to get to this point. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[jolongone]

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I've chosen my bridge.

Fucking 5 & a half hour train ride, though.

Also 5 changes.

I'm really depressed, so lacking energy. The journey will take everything out of me.

Wish this bridge was closer.

My main method was thwarted, when I was a high risk missing person & the cunts got my tablets.

I can't take this place anymore.

I've always found jumping to be the ultimate way to go. It's the I'm not fucking about method. You know someone means it when they jump.

I've been on rooftops & a certain bridge, but was caught & sectioned. However, I'm hoping that my experience will help me overcome SI when the time comes.

Who else is contemplating jumping, and have you chosen your destination?

I could never jump so l truly admire your courage even contemplating such a thing. Whatever you decide to do l hope you find your peace.

 

[theviewfromhalfway]

From experience, jumping is one of the most terrifying ways to go and if you do survive(there's always a chance) you'll be traumatised and severely injured. As soon as your foot leaves the edge, you regret it and by then it's too late. I hope you can find peace <3