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Wisdom3_1-9
he/him/his
- Jul 19, 2020
- 1,954
How is it September already? I honestly never thought I would make it this far. My life changed one night in July 2019 and I thought I was going to end things that night. If it wasn't for my husband, I would have.
I left home on May 23 to go to a hotel to take SN. I did everything but drink the solution. I went through the process again a few weeks later. Same deal. Never did I even fathom that I'd still be around in September 2020, still struggling; still hating life.
I'm angrier than I was 14 months ago. I have more hatred in my heart. I'm a worse human being. It's only going to get worse. If I make it to October I'll be flabbergasted. Gosh, I hope I don't make it to October.
I left home on May 23 to go to a hotel to take SN. I did everything but drink the solution. I went through the process again a few weeks later. Same deal. Never did I even fathom that I'd still be around in September 2020, still struggling; still hating life.
I'm angrier than I was 14 months ago. I have more hatred in my heart. I'm a worse human being. It's only going to get worse. If I make it to October I'll be flabbergasted. Gosh, I hope I don't make it to October.