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tatumtots
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- Dec 10, 2021
- 16
I did it. I put the money down and actually ordered SN. It was incredibly easy actually. For a long time my plan had been to try to buy a gun but this is difficult bc I can't drive and I worry about being able to keep a straight face/not burst into tears in front of the store owners. I've been reading more about N and it's exactly how I want to go. I drafted out the notes I want to leave behind and am making final arrangements. I even have an outfit I want to be buried in picked out. I feel so peaceful for the first time in months. The obsessive thoughts and pain are going to end. I think this sense of relief is how I know I'm doing the right thing.