My suicide though is so bad now, that I can't be in my head. Drinks from I have time off from work until bedtime. If I can sleep at all. Don't really want to die. But I don't want to live like this anymore either. Can't get out of this in a good way. Only with cash unfortunately. A lot of money despite the fact that there are 2 of us on it. Material damage. Only the 2 of us know. Unbelievable that you can keep something like that a secret. Won't tell here. I will lose face in my community if I throw the cards on the table. Narcissists are always right. Do they think.
Could take out the trash. But as I said I will be looked down upon as a fool. Probably won't work again in that case. Maybe I'll end up in a psychiatric ward. A place where they are treated like dirt, compared to the prison which is like staying at an inn. I don't want to go to jail. So that said.
Could of course move far away. I'm just afraid that I'm going to sit in an apartment and feel so bad mentally that I can't work again. And drink me to death. If I don't commit suicide by then.
So there the possibility of committing suicide. Have considered a little differently. Think it ends with a rope around the neck.
Lottery? Yes, we know all the odds.
Think maybe there is one more possibility. Have written a detailed letter with all the information relating to why I don't see many options other than suicide. How people have helped me further and further down the depression. By being like narcissists are. Take out their frustrations on others. I think this option can be divided into 2.
Could go away for a few days or 3. Turn off the phone. And leave my garage door open. Place the letter in such a way that they cannot help but become curious and stumble upon it. But how will they react in that case? There is also a risk of my scooters and tools being stolen.
Could also make a half-hearted attempt at suicide. So I have to be hospitalized. But. There is no way to avoid the risk of being physically harmed. Correct?
Do not know what to do. Would like to seek help. But the help in Denmark is a psychiatric department that doesn't care if women are raped. Electroshock. Clamping. And can't hide there all my life. Nor can I afford to find another place to live if I become unemployed, as I will in that case.
Really stuck in a corner. Can't find the money. What the hell am I supposed to do? I don't even know if I want to live a miserable life. Now I've discovered that a woman might like me. At least it's over now. Don't think I'll get the chance again. It will haunt me for the rest of my life. Maybe suicide is the best solution. If you have any input, please provide it. Maybe a collective somewhere in Europe. But as I said there is no money. And if that opportunity existed, some of you would probably have done it. Help me
Could take out the trash. But as I said I will be looked down upon as a fool. Probably won't work again in that case. Maybe I'll end up in a psychiatric ward. A place where they are treated like dirt, compared to the prison which is like staying at an inn. I don't want to go to jail. So that said.
Could of course move far away. I'm just afraid that I'm going to sit in an apartment and feel so bad mentally that I can't work again. And drink me to death. If I don't commit suicide by then.
So there the possibility of committing suicide. Have considered a little differently. Think it ends with a rope around the neck.
Lottery? Yes, we know all the odds.
Think maybe there is one more possibility. Have written a detailed letter with all the information relating to why I don't see many options other than suicide. How people have helped me further and further down the depression. By being like narcissists are. Take out their frustrations on others. I think this option can be divided into 2.
Could go away for a few days or 3. Turn off the phone. And leave my garage door open. Place the letter in such a way that they cannot help but become curious and stumble upon it. But how will they react in that case? There is also a risk of my scooters and tools being stolen.
Could also make a half-hearted attempt at suicide. So I have to be hospitalized. But. There is no way to avoid the risk of being physically harmed. Correct?
Do not know what to do. Would like to seek help. But the help in Denmark is a psychiatric department that doesn't care if women are raped. Electroshock. Clamping. And can't hide there all my life. Nor can I afford to find another place to live if I become unemployed, as I will in that case.
Really stuck in a corner. Can't find the money. What the hell am I supposed to do? I don't even know if I want to live a miserable life. Now I've discovered that a woman might like me. At least it's over now. Don't think I'll get the chance again. It will haunt me for the rest of my life. Maybe suicide is the best solution. If you have any input, please provide it. Maybe a collective somewhere in Europe. But as I said there is no money. And if that opportunity existed, some of you would probably have done it. Help me
