- Dec 10, 2020
I mess up everything. I messed up my romantic partnership of six years, I've messed up relationships with my immediate family, I've messed up my schooling (dropped out of THREE postgraduate academic programs after one to two semesters), and I've messed up countless jobs. I just received a call from a supervisor asking about my "uncharacteristic" delinquency on a recent project. Such a familiar scenario, as I've received similar ones from many supervisors over the years. Yes, when I am on track, I am very conscientious; when I am off track, I am totally useless, completely irresponsible. I hate my pattern. I flip back and forth from being an "A" student, worker, family member to being an "F" student. I can't live with myself.