- Oct 1, 2020
Im wondering if anyone ever tortures themselves by staying longer. I’ve always gone through the cycle of wanting to CBT so bad but telling myself it’s not what I deserve and punishing myself by saying to stay and deal with how shitty everything feels. I know deep down I deserve to go out in peace but I get so scared that when I die I will face nothing or even worse I’ll face all of my wrongs from life. I don’t think I believe in god but if I did I would be terrified to face my creator and say how much I despised what I am and what they made me.