Venting self medicating constantly

[rabidbunny]

i numb myself with weed, alcohol and self pleasure almost all day besides my working hours. when i see my friends on my day off, we drink and smoke the entire time and sometimes i sleep over and we do it the next day. i end up in this dissociative fog for days. i feel so disconnected from my family and loved ones. im starting to drink alone again. i cant face reality sober. i seek romantic comfort in people who usually dont care about me or themselves. makes you feel like a shell of a person or a void. i want to stop but im scared.

 

[Dreamwalker]

I resonate !! Anything to not feel the void