mrease
store brand sadboi
- Nov 3, 2020
- 18
Hey everyone,
New to the forum. Thought I'd introduce myself.
I'm a 24 year old American living abroad at the moment. I've been suicidal for the last 12 years. I don't think I'm ready to CTB quite yet. I have a lot of stuff I want to accomplish first, and I have a loving girlfriend that I don't deserve in the slightest. But every day, I feel my mental health slipping inch by inch. I'm a borderline alcoholic. I feel like a terrible person a lot, and to be honest it's mostly the guilt of hurting people from my suicide that's keeping me around. Eventually, there will come a day when I either OD on heroin or blow my brains out.
I'm really fascinated by death. I spend a lot of time looking up pictures and videos of suicides, especially ones done with firearms. I took my username from the relaxation bodies have after shooting themselves. There's some kind of art to them that I appreciate. I especially like the term Catch The Bus. It reminds me of the ending to Syd and Nancy when they get in the taxi. I came to Sanctioned Suicide because I felt like this was the only place I could talk openly and not be judged. Posts on Reddit's SuicideWatch are almost never answered. Any ways thanks for listening. If you want to DM me or anything I'm all ears.
Mr Ease
New to the forum. Thought I'd introduce myself.
I'm a 24 year old American living abroad at the moment. I've been suicidal for the last 12 years. I don't think I'm ready to CTB quite yet. I have a lot of stuff I want to accomplish first, and I have a loving girlfriend that I don't deserve in the slightest. But every day, I feel my mental health slipping inch by inch. I'm a borderline alcoholic. I feel like a terrible person a lot, and to be honest it's mostly the guilt of hurting people from my suicide that's keeping me around. Eventually, there will come a day when I either OD on heroin or blow my brains out.
I'm really fascinated by death. I spend a lot of time looking up pictures and videos of suicides, especially ones done with firearms. I took my username from the relaxation bodies have after shooting themselves. There's some kind of art to them that I appreciate. I especially like the term Catch The Bus. It reminds me of the ending to Syd and Nancy when they get in the taxi. I came to Sanctioned Suicide because I felt like this was the only place I could talk openly and not be judged. Posts on Reddit's SuicideWatch are almost never answered. Any ways thanks for listening. If you want to DM me or anything I'm all ears.
Mr Ease
