Yes, after awhile so many issues accumulate and so much time is lost, that even fixing one major thing that might've been life-changing if accomplished sooner, becomes somewhat pointless in the face of the giant backlog of problems weighing a person down.
It's a compounding domino effect.
More than that, I've found that the exhaustive efforts to fix even one problem can also be for nothing, there is the scenario of resolving something and still being left to feel empty, and then there is the scenario of killing yourself to resolve something, just one thing, and then never even getting that much, just pure defeat, and for what? Obviously nothing.
Blood, sweat, and tears, all for not.
And often times, the more you suffer, the more you need to make up for that suffering, else you remain a bitter bog of misery.
It's a nearly impossible balancing act, the longer you go without perfecting that balance, the harder it is to gain control over it.
Of course, this does not change your worries, fears and other problems.
But it is certainly good for your self-confidence and if you didn't care about your appearance you wouldn't have had this treatment.
Yes, I still agree that if you have the ability or means to fix one of your problems, even if you're still left suicidal, you might as well do it, and save yourself some pain.
You are still worth a reduction in suffering, no matter if you continue on your way to the end, or not.
I've found that exhausting in the past, where I have tried to do things to improve my life and yet I just feel the same as before. The way I see it is sometimes there is just nothing you can do, you can try your best, but nothing really helps. I guess it is still good to try things just in case I guess. This life really is tiring.
I've also made attempts in the past to improve every possible thing that is actually in my control, but when all is said and done, if the things that are
not in your control are still hanging over your head and getting in the way of living, all the work you did on everything else will never be enough, it will seem like a drop in the bucket compared to the ocean you are bound to drown in.
It's true, like you said, sometimes there is nothing that can be done, your hands are tied. Trying can be a good start, but for many it just leads to disappointment.
Life is tiresome indeed.
