Venting Self harm

[Pearl]

Trigger warning: cutting/self harm

Anyone else here that self harms with sharp objects? I used to do it a lot about 2-3 yrs ago. Have been wearing long sleeves since then. The scars have mostly vanished. I only did my left inner upper arm so they were easy to hide. I am having an urge to start again. I used to go buy a bunch of x-acto knifes since they were less suspicious to have in my bedroom and make precise cuts. Something about the pain and blood invigorated me or maybe just distracted me so I could focus on work or other things.

 

[mehdone]

I've been a self injurer for almost three decades now.

It is not a healthy coping mechanism, but it has kept me alive. I am absolutely covered in scars at this point.
I actually have a tattoo of "#11", for #11 xacto blades.