Self destruction done right

[Sunderland]

I think I've done it. The first step in my quest to chase the dragon was to completely blow up. All the ones that I knew since childhood no longer exist in my world, the friends and lovers I've made along the way think I'm a monster. In some cases, sure, maybe I took it a step too far, but this is all to achieve my goal. I don't want anyone to mourn my loss. I want to become a pariah and not have anyone think twice of where I may be. I would've liked my return post to be a bit longer than <200 words, but I've been drinking way too much today. You'll see me again If i continue to walk the path of a coward.

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

I'm way too scared to sabotage myself so harshly... I don't what I could say other than I understand... I'm sorry it's gotten to this point.

Unrelated but, I fucking love silent hill 2, I used to play it so much because it captures such a depressive tone so right. I felt seen.

 

[belowaveragefish]

I think I've done it. The first step in my quest to chase the dragon was to completely blow up. All the ones that I knew since childhood no longer exist in my world, the friends and lovers I've made along the way think I'm a monster. In some cases, sure, maybe I took it a step too far, but this is all to achieve my goal. I don't want anyone to mourn my loss. I want to become a pariah and not have anyone think twice of where I may be. I would've liked my return post to be a bit longer than <200 words, but I've been drinking way too much today. You'll see me again If i continue to walk the path of a coward.

Alcohol can be dangerous, as it can actually heighten your SI by "sobering up". Either way, this is a super bold choice. I've been sabotaging a few relationships for a few years now, but I couldn't imagine doing it to everyone I know. Safe travels, and stay brave.

 

[Sunderland]

I'm way too scared to sabotage myself so harshly... I don't what I could say other than I understand... I'm sorry it's gotten to this point.

Unrelated but, I fucking love silent hill 2, I used to play it so much because it captures such a depressive tone so right. I felt seen.

I was too at one point, now I've embraced the suck. After so many failed attempts it makes you think there may be something holding you back. I adopted that "burn that bridge when I get to it mentality a while back and haven't changed my mind since. It simply is what it is.

Silent Hill 2 is a great game though. When I'm feeling not quite depressed enough I like to sit there and listen to Mary's letter. I had a fiance for a while, I blew that one up as well, but after having a life experience like that it just makes her words cut that much deeper. James as a character has had a major influence on me since I first played that game, that one like i have as the message after my posts resonates with me to an incredible degree.