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Haematemesis

Haematemesis

Student
Jan 12, 2025
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I went out for a walk. I had deep thoughts about life and decided to end it all together once again. I intented to jump off my floor but it seemed too scary.

I had two optinions. I would either quit trying to commit it or would force myself into it. I chose the second. I used all of my money that I've been saving for months to buy alcohol and cigarettes. I used them and I headed toward my house. That's all I remember.

According to what the police told me I was found unconscious in a park and was sent into the nearest hospital. They did drug test on me and one of the officers told me that my blood was so coagulated that nurses complained the syringe hardly extracted any blood. This, I think explains the chronical chest pain I experience.

Then I was forcefully sent into a psychiatrist. I tried to comply and will not lie was afraid. After a couple of incoherent sentences and taking all the lawful responsibility upon myself I was set free. I am now home cutting myself and somewhat sober because of the serum injected in me. Thank you for reading.
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
That's sounds like a lot. I'm really sorry you went through all of this.
 
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LoverofAnimals

Giver of Hugs
Sep 20, 2025
185
That is terrible. So sorry you had to go through that 😞
 
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k1m

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Feb 6, 2025
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That sounds so scary. Do you have anyone to be with you?
 
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Haematemesis

Student
Jan 12, 2025
190
That sounds so scary. Do you have anyone to be with you?
Honestly those who would be around me are one the reasons I did this. I don't want anyone to find or help me. And I curse whoever has found me and called the emergency service.
 
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