Sleeper System
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- May 5, 2022
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It's been a few months since I've allowed myself to step off the hamster wheel of life long enough to assess the current state of my mental health and contribute in whatever way I can to this temple of self reflection that I'm so greatful to be apart of.
I made the choice to not focus on my depression and continue to blindly move forward as another cog in the machine of society. The idea being making yourself so preoccupied that you don't even have time to be depressed. For the most part, it works.
Regardless, this thing that eats away at us from the inside has no cure. And every once in awhile I get really sad. Thinking about the future and all the probable outcomes in life that will cause me enough distress to cement a CTB plan.
I'm taking things one day at a time. Literally. I know it's a cliche notion but it's more true with the continued passing of time.
I continue to hang on. Waiting for the next problem the universe is likely to throw my way to catch me off guard.
I'm always thinking and looking for new ctb methods. Playing scenerios in my head. The latest one involves facilitating a win win situation where I rob someone In the hope of suicide by cop. If I can get away with it somehow then I'll have some money in my pocket. If not, then at least this life is finally over.
That's enough ranting for today! Thanks for reading!
I made the choice to not focus on my depression and continue to blindly move forward as another cog in the machine of society. The idea being making yourself so preoccupied that you don't even have time to be depressed. For the most part, it works.
Regardless, this thing that eats away at us from the inside has no cure. And every once in awhile I get really sad. Thinking about the future and all the probable outcomes in life that will cause me enough distress to cement a CTB plan.
I'm taking things one day at a time. Literally. I know it's a cliche notion but it's more true with the continued passing of time.
I continue to hang on. Waiting for the next problem the universe is likely to throw my way to catch me off guard.
I'm always thinking and looking for new ctb methods. Playing scenerios in my head. The latest one involves facilitating a win win situation where I rob someone In the hope of suicide by cop. If I can get away with it somehow then I'll have some money in my pocket. If not, then at least this life is finally over.
That's enough ranting for today! Thanks for reading!
