Venting Searching friends

[sadlyexisting]

I've been alone almost my entire life, the first few close friends I ever had, I met here on SaSu. But I am not close to most of them anymore. Nor have I ever had close friends in real life, either. I tried really hard to make friends, but due to my introverted nature and social anxiety, it was never really easy for me. But no one wants to be friends with me at all, either they said I was too ugly and unpopular or they just stopped talking to me after a while, because they thought I was too annoying and clingy.

I don't really have anyone to talk to anymore, and I am just lost in my own thoughts. It really feels like nobody cares for me. I can't talk to my parents either, for obvious reasons. I feel so left alone and isolated that I can't stand it anymore, I just need someone I can talk and open up too again. I feel like I am drowning in my own thoughts without any ability to let them out.

So yeah, if anyone on here would be able to chat, I'd highly appreciate it, I could really use someone to talk to right now.

 

[goodoldnoname923]

I'm really sorry I haven't been there for you as much as i should be,i really hope you can find other friends as well.

 

[katara]

𝐈'𝐦 𝐬𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐚𝐫, 𝐞𝐱𝐜𝐞𝐩𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐰𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞. 𝐈'𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐝𝐫𝐨𝐩 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩 𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐥𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐧𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐨𝐧. 𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈'𝐦 𝐝𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠, 𝐈'𝐝 𝐥𝐞𝐠𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐢𝐟 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐦𝐞. 𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐨𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐲 𝐬𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐯𝐚𝐠𝐮𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐝𝐨, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐈'𝐦 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐚 𝐯𝐨𝐢𝐝 𝐡𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐈 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐝 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐚 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐞.

𝐈'𝐦 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐝. 𝐌𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭! 𝐈 𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞, 𝐈 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐰𝐞'𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐚 𝐟𝐞𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐨𝐧.

 

[eatantz]

I relate to you, i struggle to make friends due to my autism. I'm always free to talk to, I'm not good at advice but if you need to vent ill listen

 

[UKscotty]

Making friends on a suicide forum is a very bad idea in my view. We are not here because we are well. Literally anyone could be deceased 5 minutes from now. You can never know what's going on in someone's head.

I have made and lost depressed friends too many times. Online and in person. Now I got sick of the funerals.