Venting School Destroyed me

[Phantomygg]

Just need to vent a bit. School and all the bullies were just too much. Even after all these years, it still remains in my mind how all of them would do some of the cruelest things to me and make me an outcast. Even when the bullying got so bad where they drew profanity on my clothes with permanent markers, my parents didn't care, nor did the teachers. Even after school ended on the last day of classes, one of my bullies tried to apologize and revealed that a lot more people were bullying me behind my back than I even knew, and it just made me feel even worse. I can barely trust anyone anymore and am living on the edge of Either CTB or just hoping my body gives out one day, and I just don't wake up from sleeping.

 

[FuneralCry]

That really is so horrible, I understand just wanting to never wake again, it's truly so cruel how people suffer so much all through no fault of their own.

 

[Sulyya]

School is such a traumatizing place. Hopefully you find somewhere more accepting. irl, I mean, since there's always sasu

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's so awful to be bullied and it's a disgusting behavior from school mates. I'm sorry you had to go through this.

 

[SnakesButNoLadder]

Did you accept the bullies apology?

I'm in a unique position as I can see it from both sides. Life for me has been rough, I was bullied in school because my brother was the well-known local drug addict ( and some other things ). I was teased at school and home was pretty violent. Life just seemed harsh to me, and I did tease one kid (not very severely but I was still ashamed). I apologised to him and was lucky for him to accept my apology.

My point is, kids are susceptible to mimicking and copying behaviour of peers or family they themselves fall victim to, as I did. Forgiveness is only for those who have remorse, but you can have hope that those bullies can feel ashamed in their actions.

Ruminating about bullying is basically allowing yourself to bully yourself.