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Comatose11
Mage
- Jul 26, 2018
- 572
I thought I was going to be dead by 18. I didn't try in high school and dropped out. Big mistake. It ruined my academics. I'm now in my 20s, in college, and realized that yeah, I'm not prepared for college. I'm not capable of getting a bachelors and looked at associates degrees options. They either don't pay well or are beyond my aptitude. Looked into trade school and the military. Not really a great option. Fuck it. I could potentially work 5 times as hard as my classmates, but fuck that shit. I also realized it won't get any better once I'm in the work force. People tell you the cliques, the mean girls, and the gossip and bullies goes away once you're an adult. That is a lie. I have a job outside of school, and holy crap, do cliques and the gossip still exist! Even in grown adults who have been out of high school for more than half of their lives. The school and work situation is another reason I want to ctb. It's either that or homelessness. I also looked into just being in the work force. Nope. Fuck that shit. I hate life already, I don't see why I would want to work or bust my ass in school when my efforts don't even go anywhere. I've busted my ass god knows how many times for nothing at work and school. It rarely pays off.
Edit: I also hate the military culture. I'd be miserable there.
Edit: I also hate the military culture. I'd be miserable there.