schizoid freak with no understanding

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I'm not an introvert I'm a schizoid. I don't understand why people online continuously challenge me on this i think i know myself more than you do. I have no friends desire no friends. I'm asexual and Aromantic i see no need for love sex or anything like that.. While it's true I have a family it's not my fault and don't like being shackled to them. i wish them no ill will and don't hate them, however I want to be alone it's as simple as that. As others make my existence out to be random things all incorrect. I'm telling the world I would rather be flat out dead than have the life I have. I consider myself and my circumstances garbage. Value my life? Man I hate my life roll my eyes and I spit on it. If and when i take my own life the lack of solitude i crave will be one of the biggest reasons why.

this video i made shows my major frustrations-

i can be a villain-

 

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I might be the most stupid person on Earth wow. I just learned that schizoid means what you said. All this time I thought it was just some shorter way of saying schizophrenic, but Ig not. It's a whole different meaning.