Scared of messing up hanging

[snoot]

I don't want to be left a vegetable if I messed up hanging, that seems worse than death. But I can't get my hands on any SN because I live on an island where things like that coming in the post are heavily monitored.
I wish there was something quick and painless but it seems like every method available to me would hurt.

 

[FuneralCry]

We all deserve a peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing, it is cruel how the society denies us this and expects us to suffer for decades. We should not have to resort to methods that could fail, I am also scared of failing hanging, as it will likely be my method. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[LivideLamb]

I'm sorry about the situation you're currently in. Messing up any attempts seems rather terrifying. I guess that there are other ways of CTB-ing than SN or rope. I hope that you'll find peace with whatever you choose.

Also, for a hanging, you need a minimum of half an hour to be dead. Being caught in between won't lead to a happy ending either.

I'm hoping for the best for you.