Scared of failing

[foreverhopeless87]

I plan on taking SN in about two weeks time. I am so scared that I will fail. I can't get the other drugs from Stan's guide I just have the SN. I live alone so I am not worried about someone finding me or interrupting me. I have also spent time in the psych ward and have no desire to go back so I highly doubt I would call for help once I have taken the SN.

 

[MidnightDream]

People have died from just testing a small amount. The extra drugs are there to make it that little bit more fullproof, and that little bit more comfortable.
If you can't get antiemetics, expect to vomit and be prepared with a back up glass. As long as you take enough, you can still be successful

 

[rejected]

I plan on taking SN in about two weeks time. I am so scared that I will fail. I can't get the other drugs from Stan's guide I just have the SN. I live alone so I am not worried about someone finding me or interrupting me. I have also spent time in the psych ward and have no desire to go back so I highly doubt I would call for help once I have taken the SN.

I know how you feel. I plan to take sn very soon as well and am having a hard time obtaining other drugs I need. Have gotten scammed through the process. Very ready to go, have had a few attempts in the past (not with sn) and terrified to try and fail again. Especially when I put so much time and effort into it all just to wake up to a fail . I hope you find peace and I'm sorry current mental health services aren't equipped or even manufactured for the better interest of the sufferers of mental illness.

 

[universe]

I easily understand these questions and anxieties when approaching the SN. I too am very scared that it will fail as I have never tried CTB, this will be the first time in my life. I'm afraid of suffering even with the drugs and I'm afraid of being discovered. I plan several glasses of SN, if I vomit one glass, I will take another and so on.

I'm sorry that life made you suffer, I wish you peace, and I hope you get better.

 

[foreverhopeless87]

People have died from just testing a small amount. The extra drugs are there to make it that little bit more fullproof, and that little bit more comfortable.
If you can't get antiemetics, expect to vomit and be prepared with a back up glass. As long as you take enough, you can still be successful

Thanks. I am worried if I puke then I won't be able to get another glass down.

I easily understand these questions and anxieties when approaching the SN. I too am very scared that it will fail as I have never tried CTB, this will be the first time in my life. I'm afraid of suffering even with the drugs and I'm afraid of being discovered. I plan several glasses of SN, if I vomit one glass, I will take another and so on.

I'm sorry that life made you suffer, I wish you peace, and I hope you get better.

Thanks. The only thing I have tried before was grinding up 500 apple seeds and eating them. That did nothing tho

 

[FuneralCry]

I do get that it can be tiring and awful having these fears. We live in a world that makes planning our death to be complicated with the chance of things potentially going wrong as we plan to leave. This is why I wish for a legal assisted suicide option as then people wouldn't have to experience these worries. But yes it does sound so horrible failing ctb, I envy those who have succeeded. I wish you freedom from all suffering for when the time is right for you to leave.