Venting Scared of dying

[SapoMotoqueiro]

As much i want it since i was a teen, as much i learn, i am still scared of failling because it will have big consequences, like not being allowed being alone. Probably i will hang myself, i know what rope and knots should be but i have no confidence at all. I know i am a crybaby.

Besides praticing it, is there others ways to have confidence?

 

[unluckysadness]

You're not a crybaby. Fear of failing is normal. CTB is a serious thing. If you don't have confidence with hanging, you should probably consider another option. You need to be fully prepared when you time will come. Good luck and welcome to this forum

 

[SapoMotoqueiro]

Thanks! my other options will not work, there is no high place close and drowing would be in a public space, hanging is the most accessible option for me :/

 

[strawberry931]

I would say it's normal to be scared of the unknown of CTB. It's also normal to fear failing because there could be long-term consequences. With full hanging, there is little one can do to back out once set into motion so the reliability is very high. It may not be confidence you are lacking, but rather courage. I have the same courage issue with full hanging which is why I'm trying to do a more relaxed and peaceful method using CO. With CO though there are several variables you have to get just right. With full hanging there are variables you have to get right too but are easier than the charcoal method. I am considering full hanging myself, but it honestly terrifies me. I don't have the courage. I do have the courage to light some charcoal and sit in a comfy car while I slowly pass out. I wish I could get my hands on nitrogen.