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I just want to start this out by saying i love life, my life has never been easy but i've always been grateful to be alive i lived with great passion, wonder and overall had a good life.

I wanted to live till i was 200.

Unfortunately recently i suffered a severe brain injury that is irreversible, leaving me with cognitive deficits and destroyed my sleep completely.

I am no longer able to work and am i cut off from many things i enjoyed previously.

My quality of life has decreased significantly.

I feel at this point to save me from further suffering it makes the most sense to just end things, hence me being here.

But I am scared of eternal nothingness, i realize i cant avoid this forever hence why i think i should just do it now.

But the great unknown of death is terrifying to me and stops me even though i suffer so much.
 
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I understand I have a tbi and the cognitive effects really suck. When did you get your tbi?
 
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Living with a Brain Injury: A Daily, Silent Struggle

For many people, life after a brain injury becomes a never-ending battle — not just for recovery, but for dignity, understanding, and a sense of normalcy. While the physical damage may not always be visible, the consequences ripple through every corner of a person's life. Living with a brain injury isn't just challenging — it can feel like a living nightmare.

A Constant State of Discomfort

One of the most insidious aspects of a brain injury is the persistent discomfort — not just physical, but emotional, cognitive, and sensory. It can feel like the world no longer fits. Lights are too bright. Sounds are too loud. The body aches for no reason. Thoughts are foggy and slow. Even in moments of quiet, there's rarely peace. This constant state of unease drains energy, patience, and hope.

The Loss of Independence

Tasks that were once automatic — dressing, bathing, eating — can become frustratingly difficult. Cooking a meal or simply taking a shower might require step-by-step reminders or physical assistance. Each of these losses chips away at a person's sense of autonomy and identity.

Cognitive Challenges

Brain injuries often impair memory, concentration, problem-solving, and decision-making. Survivors may struggle to follow conversations, manage time, or plan their day. Even crossing the street or grocery shopping can feel overwhelming. The mental effort required to "appear normal" in public is exhausting.

Emotional Turmoil

The brain is the command center for emotion, so when it's injured, personality changes often follow. Survivors may become impulsive, irritable, or emotionally unpredictable. Even formerly calm individuals might find themselves quick to anger or unable to regulate their moods. This can strain relationships and lead to painful misunderstandings with loved ones.

Financial and Employment Struggles

Many survivors face job loss or are forced to leave careers they once excelled in. Others may continue working but struggle in silence, their performance hindered by fatigue or confusion. Without steady income, basic necessities — like food, housing, and medical care — become difficult to afford, compounding stress and instability.

Social Isolation

Brain injuries often lead to isolation. Friends may drift away, unsure of how to help. Family members might not fully grasp the extent of the changes, especially when there are no outward signs of disability. Survivors, in turn, may avoid social situations out of embarrassment, anxiety, or the inability to keep up. The result is a deep sense of loneliness and disconnection.

Disrupted Sleep

Sleep is rarely restful after a brain injury. Survivors often deal with insomnia, vivid nightmares, or strange and unsettling dreams. Poor sleep intensifies cognitive fog, mood swings, and fatigue, making daily functioning even more difficult.

The Need for Compassion and Awareness

Brain injuries are complex and misunderstood. The effects are often invisible, leading others to assume everything is fine — even when every day feels like walking through a storm in the dark. Survivors don't just need treatment. They need patience, understanding, and support systems that recognize the full scope of their reality.

Living with a brain injury means rebuilding life from the ground up, often without a clear roadmap. It requires strength, resilience, and an incredible amount of courage — even if the world doesn't always see it.
 
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I understand I have a tbi and the cognitive effects really suck. When did you get your tbi?

How do you cope?

I've had it for about 2-3 months.
Living with a Brain Injury: A Daily, Silent Struggle

For many people, life after a brain injury becomes a never-ending battle — not just for recovery, but for dignity, understanding, and a sense of normalcy. While the physical damage may not always be visible, the consequences ripple through every corner of a person's life. Living with a brain injury isn't just challenging — it can feel like a living nightmare.

A Constant State of Discomfort

One of the most insidious aspects of a brain injury is the persistent discomfort — not just physical, but emotional, cognitive, and sensory. It can feel like the world no longer fits. Lights are too bright. Sounds are too loud. The body aches for no reason. Thoughts are foggy and slow. Even in moments of quiet, there's rarely peace. This constant state of unease drains energy, patience, and hope.

The Loss of Independence

Tasks that were once automatic — dressing, bathing, eating — can become frustratingly difficult. Cooking a meal or simply taking a shower might require step-by-step reminders or physical assistance. Each of these losses chips away at a person's sense of autonomy and identity.

Cognitive Challenges

Brain injuries often impair memory, concentration, problem-solving, and decision-making. Survivors may struggle to follow conversations, manage time, or plan their day. Even crossing the street or grocery shopping can feel overwhelming. The mental effort required to "appear normal" in public is exhausting.

Emotional Turmoil

The brain is the command center for emotion, so when it's injured, personality changes often follow. Survivors may become impulsive, irritable, or emotionally unpredictable. Even formerly calm individuals might find themselves quick to anger or unable to regulate their moods. This can strain relationships and lead to painful misunderstandings with loved ones.

Financial and Employment Struggles

Many survivors face job loss or are forced to leave careers they once excelled in. Others may continue working but struggle in silence, their performance hindered by fatigue or confusion. Without steady income, basic necessities — like food, housing, and medical care — become difficult to afford, compounding stress and instability.

Social Isolation

Brain injuries often lead to isolation. Friends may drift away, unsure of how to help. Family members might not fully grasp the extent of the changes, especially when there are no outward signs of disability. Survivors, in turn, may avoid social situations out of embarrassment, anxiety, or the inability to keep up. The result is a deep sense of loneliness and disconnection.

Disrupted Sleep

Sleep is rarely restful after a brain injury. Survivors often deal with insomnia, vivid nightmares, or strange and unsettling dreams. Poor sleep intensifies cognitive fog, mood swings, and fatigue, making daily functioning even more difficult.

The Need for Compassion and Awareness

Brain injuries are complex and misunderstood. The effects are often invisible, leading others to assume everything is fine — even when every day feels like walking through a storm in the dark. Survivors don't just need treatment. They need patience, understanding, and support systems that recognize the full scope of their reality.

Living with a brain injury means rebuilding life from the ground up, often without a clear roadmap. It requires strength, resilience, and an incredible amount of courage — even if the world doesn't always see it.

Where is this from? Do you have TBI?
 
Darkover

Darkover

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Where is this from? Do you have TBI?
i was going to create my own thread labeled brain injury are a living nightmare but i seen your post and decided to post it here instead

When I was 30, I suffered a brain injury and developed tinnitus in both ears. The damage stemmed from using large headphones and constantly listening to drum and bass music at high volumes. Over time, I began to hear creaking and cracking in my ears, a constant reminder of the harm caused.
I used to be a programmer, but since the injury, I've found it nearly impossible to concentrate on programming anymore. I also believe that my use of weed played a role in amplifying the damage to my ears and brain, as the pleasurable effects while high likely contributed to me pushing my limits, i've lived with this condition since 2016 so 9 years i've been suicidal everyday during that time i mostly smoke weed to relax me everyday
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

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How do you cope?

I've had it for about 2-3 months.


Where is this from? Do you have TBI?
You are very early in recovery it takes a few years to know what effects you are left with. Got to give it time a lot of healing can happen in that time. Ya I do
Living with a Brain Injury: A Daily, Silent Struggle

For many people, life after a brain injury becomes a never-ending battle — not just for recovery, but for dignity, understanding, and a sense of normalcy. While the physical damage may not always be visible, the consequences ripple through every corner of a person's life. Living with a brain injury isn't just challenging — it can feel like a living nightmare.

A Constant State of Discomfort

One of the most insidious aspects of a brain injury is the persistent discomfort — not just physical, but emotional, cognitive, and sensory. It can feel like the world no longer fits. Lights are too bright. Sounds are too loud. The body aches for no reason. Thoughts are foggy and slow. Even in moments of quiet, there's rarely peace. This constant state of unease drains energy, patience, and hope.

The Loss of Independence

Tasks that were once automatic — dressing, bathing, eating — can become frustratingly difficult. Cooking a meal or simply taking a shower might require step-by-step reminders or physical assistance. Each of these losses chips away at a person's sense of autonomy and identity.

Cognitive Challenges

Brain injuries often impair memory, concentration, problem-solving, and decision-making. Survivors may struggle to follow conversations, manage time, or plan their day. Even crossing the street or grocery shopping can feel overwhelming. The mental effort required to "appear normal" in public is exhausting.

Emotional Turmoil

The brain is the command center for emotion, so when it's injured, personality changes often follow. Survivors may become impulsive, irritable, or emotionally unpredictable. Even formerly calm individuals might find themselves quick to anger or unable to regulate their moods. This can strain relationships and lead to painful misunderstandings with loved ones.

Financial and Employment Struggles

Many survivors face job loss or are forced to leave careers they once excelled in. Others may continue working but struggle in silence, their performance hindered by fatigue or confusion. Without steady income, basic necessities — like food, housing, and medical care — become difficult to afford, compounding stress and instability.

Social Isolation

Brain injuries often lead to isolation. Friends may drift away, unsure of how to help. Family members might not fully grasp the extent of the changes, especially when there are no outward signs of disability. Survivors, in turn, may avoid social situations out of embarrassment, anxiety, or the inability to keep up. The result is a deep sense of loneliness and disconnection.

Disrupted Sleep

Sleep is rarely restful after a brain injury. Survivors often deal with insomnia, vivid nightmares, or strange and unsettling dreams. Poor sleep intensifies cognitive fog, mood swings, and fatigue, making daily functioning even more difficult.

The Need for Compassion and Awareness

Brain injuries are complex and misunderstood. The effects are often invisible, leading others to assume everything is fine — even when every day feels like walking through a storm in the dark. Survivors don't just need treatment. They need patience, understanding, and support systems that recognize the full scope of their reality.

Living with a brain injury means rebuilding life from the ground up, often without a clear roadmap. It requires strength, resilience, and an incredible amount of courage — even if the world doesn't always see it.
This made me cry .This explains it so much . The invisible effects people cant see
Living with a Brain Injury: A Daily, Silent Struggle

For many people, life after a brain injury becomes a never-ending battle — not just for recovery, but for dignity, understanding, and a sense of normalcy. While the physical damage may not always be visible, the consequences ripple through every corner of a person's life. Living with a brain injury isn't just challenging — it can feel like a living nightmare.

A Constant State of Discomfort

One of the most insidious aspects of a brain injury is the persistent discomfort — not just physical, but emotional, cognitive, and sensory. It can feel like the world no longer fits. Lights are too bright. Sounds are too loud. The body aches for no reason. Thoughts are foggy and slow. Even in moments of quiet, there's rarely peace. This constant state of unease drains energy, patience, and hope.

The Loss of Independence

Tasks that were once automatic — dressing, bathing, eating — can become frustratingly difficult. Cooking a meal or simply taking a shower might require step-by-step reminders or physical assistance. Each of these losses chips away at a person's sense of autonomy and identity.

Cognitive Challenges

Brain injuries often impair memory, concentration, problem-solving, and decision-making. Survivors may struggle to follow conversations, manage time, or plan their day. Even crossing the street or grocery shopping can feel overwhelming. The mental effort required to "appear normal" in public is exhausting.

Emotional Turmoil

The brain is the command center for emotion, so when it's injured, personality changes often follow. Survivors may become impulsive, irritable, or emotionally unpredictable. Even formerly calm individuals might find themselves quick to anger or unable to regulate their moods. This can strain relationships and lead to painful misunderstandings with loved ones.

Financial and Employment Struggles

Many survivors face job loss or are forced to leave careers they once excelled in. Others may continue working but struggle in silence, their performance hindered by fatigue or confusion. Without steady income, basic necessities — like food, housing, and medical care — become difficult to afford, compounding stress and instability.

Social Isolation

Brain injuries often lead to isolation. Friends may drift away, unsure of how to help. Family members might not fully grasp the extent of the changes, especially when there are no outward signs of disability. Survivors, in turn, may avoid social situations out of embarrassment, anxiety, or the inability to keep up. The result is a deep sense of loneliness and disconnection.

Disrupted Sleep

Sleep is rarely restful after a brain injury. Survivors often deal with insomnia, vivid nightmares, or strange and unsettling dreams. Poor sleep intensifies cognitive fog, mood swings, and fatigue, making daily functioning even more difficult.

The Need for Compassion and Awareness

Brain injuries are complex and misunderstood. The effects are often invisible, leading others to assume everything is fine — even when every day feels like walking through a storm in the dark. Survivors don't just need treatment. They need patience, understanding, and support systems that recognize the full scope of their reality.

Living with a brain injury means rebuilding life from the ground up, often without a clear roadmap. It requires strength, resilience, and an incredible amount of courage — even if the world doesn't always see it.
This made me cry .This explains it so much . The invisible effects people cant see
 
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I'm sorry you have to suffer so unbearably, it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing, it really sounds like you've suffered a lot. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
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What is it about death that scares you? To me death sounds comforting, freedom from all the burdens of life.
 
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I think what you are really saying is that you are scared to completely divert your focus from physical reality.

Are you scared to fall asleep? When you sleep, your conscious mind is no longer attenuated to physical life - it's the same thing.

I think the people who expect death to be a state of nothingness are in for a bigger shock.

I have died and experienced an NDE - it may be comforting to you to look up NDE testimonials on Youtube, etc.

In my experience, and many other people's, death is just a change of wardrobe and once it "happens", you realize that your life now is more like a movie finishing, when you get up and walk out of the theatre and suddenly realize "wow, that was just a movie". No matter how "real" your life feels right now, it almost becomes trivial when you "die". It is said that birth is much more of a shock than death.

These are just my opinions - I'm not claiming to have "proof" or "evidence" of anything.
 
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What is it about death that scares you? To me death sounds comforting, freedom from all the burdens of life.

The destruction of everything including myself.

People often say death brings peace, but peace is only present in life you cannot experience peace in death.

Even my problem, where the the only solution is death.

Death isn't an answer to my problem, it is just the destruction of the problem and answer.
I think what you are really saying is that you are scared to completely divert your focus from physical reality.

Are you scared to fall asleep? When you sleep, your conscious mind is no longer attenuated to physical life - it's the same thing.

I think the people who expect death to be a state of nothingness are in for a bigger shock.

I have died and experienced an NDE - it may be comforting to you to look up NDE testimonials on Youtube, etc.

In my experience, and many other people's, death is just a change of wardrobe and once it "happens", you realize that your life now is more like a movie finishing, when you get up and walk out of the theatre and suddenly realize "wow, that was just a movie". No matter how "real" your life feels right now, it almost becomes trivial when you "die". It is said that birth is much more of a shock than death.

These are just my opinions - I'm not claiming to have "proof" or "evidence" of anything.

Yeah i'm partial to the possibility of some sort of afterlife, but i'm still not full convinced.

Therefore i feel if i am to do this, i must be willing to accept the fact death is the end and only nothingness awaits which i must confront.
 
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Therefore i feel if i am to do this, i must be willing to except the fact death is the end and only nothingness awaits which i must confront.
I feel the same. I have my own set of beliefs about what happens after I'll die, but since I can't ever be certain until that time comes, I need to make peace with the possibility of nothingness, and I don't even know where to start… It's scary.
 
divinemistress36

divinemistress36

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Jan 1, 2024
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I think what you are really saying is that you are scared to completely divert your focus from physical reality.

Are you scared to fall asleep? When you sleep, your conscious mind is no longer attenuated to physical life - it's the same thing.

I think the people who expect death to be a state of nothingness are in for a bigger shock.

I have died and experienced an NDE - it may be comforting to you to look up NDE testimonials on Youtube, etc.

In my experience, and many other people's, death is just a change of wardrobe and once it "happens", you realize that your life now is more like a movie finishing, when you get up and walk out of the theatre and suddenly realize "wow, that was just a movie". No matter how "real" your life feels right now, it almost becomes trivial when you "die". It is said that birth is much more of a shock than death.

These are just my opinions - I'm not claiming to have "proof" or "evidence" of anything.
Did you have a life review?
 

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