I'll most likely CTB next week, and I've been thinking about my only friend. Surely I'm being selfish wanting to say goodbye to him just before I do it. Because he will probably become desperate to find me and stop me. But at the same time I will feel very lonely leaving without talking to him, at least through text. Also the fear of him calling the police and they somehow finding me quickly (I'll be at a campsite in another city).
I've written my suicide letter and I say goodbye to him there already, thanking him for everything. And he will be the one to whom I'll send a delayed message or email in order to search for my body. Also I've stated in writing that my stuff should go to him. I don't want my family to distribute my stuff among them and use my things, since they don't give a shit about me.
I've written my suicide letter and I say goodbye to him there already, thanking him for everything. And he will be the one to whom I'll send a delayed message or email in order to search for my body. Also I've stated in writing that my stuff should go to him. I don't want my family to distribute my stuff among them and use my things, since they don't give a shit about me.
