Discussion Saying goodbye to loved ones - Thoughts appreciated

[Hangnail]

I know this topic has been discussed already, but what are your plans for saying goodbye, if you have any?

I am in part asking for my own sake as I'm trying to manage how to say goodbye to my beloved boyfriend.

He's the one person who has tried to cheer me up throughout my ordeal and convince me to stay alive. I feel immensely guilty for leaving him behind and hurting him. I know he does not have many people outside of me. I love him and care about him deeply. How do I mitigate the pain my CTB will inflict? Should I break up with him before I CTB so he doesn't have to be aware of it or should I let him stay in my life until the very end? I'm afraid the latter will hurt him more.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only you can answer the second question, I believe it to be a personal decision whether to end an relationship.
As a farewell, I would personally choose to write notes to act as a form of closure for those left behind and it would give them some sort of explanation as to why I chose to do this. This would mean that they are not left with unanswered questions.

 

[Pluto]

The main thing in this situation is to emphasise that the decision was yours and was not influenced by others. Otherwise, people can have an awful time blaming themselves or each other, or wondering if they could have done something to prevent this outcome.

 

[MyStateKilledMe]

No, don't say goodbye verbatim. They may be loved ones, but they're still pro-lifers at heart, and they WILL narc on you to the police.

As I wrote in my "CTB Checklist" thread (https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ctb-checklist.37667/), do this. The day before your bus, call your loved ones, and have some heartfelt, loving conversations. You don't have to get melodramatic, just tell them you love them, and sincerely thank them for what they've done for you or given to you. That's it. If they wonder why you called, tell them you stumbled upon an emotional article online (which is technically true, like this site.) Then, 3 hours before your bus, mail out loving goodbye letters to the loved ones you talked to. You can also mail them a check to offset your funeral costs, but that's a moral decision on you. It also helps to mail a letter to your local police with home entry instructions, so your body can be found and properly buried before it deteriorates too much.

Postal mail is slow. It takes at least 24 hours for a letter to reach even your next-door neighbor. By the time your loved ones or your police department receive your letter, days will pass, and you'll be already dead. The risk to you being caught and imprisoned in a mental ward is less that 1% at that point.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Then, 3 hours before your bus, mail out loving goodbye letters to the loved ones you talked to. You can also mail them a check to offset your funeral costs, but that's a moral decision on you. It also helps to mail a letter to your local police with home entry instructions, so your body can be found and properly buried before it deteriorates too much.

If the OP does this, they better be damn sure they're going to follow through with CTB, or else there could be some real issues with the explanations. Especially the one to the cops. Might end up getting locked up if they don't follow through with the CTB. Believe me, I understand because this is what I plan on doing. I only have one letter to mail and that is to the police to come and find my body. I have no one else to write. But, before I go, you can rest assured that I'll be ready to go and as sure as I can be that I'm going to go through with it because I don't want to be locked up. Timing is everything here.

 

[makethepainstop]

I know this topic has been discussed already, but what are your plans for saying goodbye, if you have any?

I am in part asking for my own sake as I'm trying to manage how to say goodbye to my beloved boyfriend.

He's the one person who has tried to cheer me up throughout my ordeal and convince me to stay alive. I feel immensely guilty for leaving him behind and hurting him. I know he does not have many people outside of me. I love him and care about him deeply. How do I mitigate the pain my CTB will inflict? Should I break up with him before I CTB so he doesn't have to be aware of it or should I let him stay in my life until the very end? I'm afraid the latter will hurt him more.

If you must leave words for him, I wonder if the average person could make a dvd on a cd like a movie, or even burn a cd with your home computer system with just your voice on it. The traditional way is suicide notes. One man was reported here to have left a 1900-page-long suicide note! That was not a suicide note that was a damn book! :)