Annoyed… my roommate is making me do everything for her, and I guess I do it because I genuinely want to, but I'm thinking of all the times I've been through this… Can't fucking sleep because the human body is fucking hell, and struggling because I get distracted… I really am trying and am not lying… ADHD sucks but having to constantly fight yourself to sleep and deal with human emotions fucking sucks more!! I think about death so much especially over the fact that I'm basically made to be imprisoned helping and being around others that puts me through fucking peril and hear there problems (the ones outside not here ) and it makes me so damn suicidal everyday knowing this world is a mental/physical prison and literal nightmare…
