
Electra
The relief of giving in to destruction
- Jul 1, 2024
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I feel this a lot. And it's what I came here to say also. Sorry you are SO tired that "exhausted" is a better descriptor for you than "tired".Exhausted
I hear youI feel this a lot. And it's what I came here to say also. Sorry you are SO tired that "exhausted" is a better descriptor for you than "tired".
Every 4-5 days I tank for a couple of days. If the weather changes (the barometric pressure moving around KILLS me) then all bets are off and I have been "down and out" for as long as a couple of weeks at a time. THAT'S rough. And when my thoughts of ctb are at their highest.I hear youand even now I was thinking I'm too exhausted to think of a better word. According to google I think depleted is also a good description. Sorry for you too. Can you sleep, or do you get to have some restful hours at least?
Wow, that's really bad. If you don't mind me asking, is it due where you live, this weather?Every 4-5 days I tank for a couple of days. If the weather changes (the barometric pressure moving around KILLS me) then all bets are off and I have been "down and out" for as long as a couple of weeks at a time. THAT'S rough. And when my thoughts of ctb are at their highest.
Yep. I live in Tornado Alley (in the United States). There is ALWAYS SOMETHING forming somewhere headed straight for my home state (Oklahoma).Wow, that's really bad. If you don't mind me asking, is it due where you live, this weather?
Wow, it's like the stuff I've only seen on tv... and this is your reality. Any chance to get out of there?Yep. I live in Tornado Alley (in the United States). There is ALWAYS SOMETHING forming somewhere headed straight for my home state (Oklahoma).
Nah ... This is home. I love it here. All the convenience of big city living, yet I live 1/2 mile from some of the most beautiful rural areas you could ever ask to see. I have a food garden in my front yard, a small fruit orchard and chickens and rabbit and quail in the back. I have my dogs and my cats. I regularly see possums, raccoons and deer in my neighborhood, yet I live literally 3 blocks -- within walking distance -- to a good-sized grocery store AND a Sonic Drive-InWow, it's like the stuff I've only seen on tv... and this is your reality. Any chance to get out of there?
Who understands any of this anyways ... all the bestNah ... This is home. I love it here. All the convenience of big city living, yet I live 1/2 mile from some of the most beautiful rural areas you could ever ask to see. I have a food garden in my front yard, a small fruit orchard and chickens and rabbit and quail in the back. I have my dogs and my cats. I regularly see possums, raccoons and deer in my neighborhood, yet I live literally 3 blocks -- within walking distance -- to a good-sized grocery store AND a Sonic Drive-InI am addicted to Sonic Ice -- couldn't want for anything more. (Except maybe a little bit bigger yard so I could have a couple of fainting pygmy goats!
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I have no idea how I can even ponder how to ctb when I am as fortunate as I am. I know people who would DIE to have the life I have, and yet I have this confounding urge to leave it all behind. I do not understand my brain at all.