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Electra

Electra

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Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Recovery are not the winner.
Feb 24, 2023
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Misplaced
 
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empty heart
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
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HopingOnaMiracle

HopingOnaMiracle

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Don't know how else to put it
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
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Alcoholic Teletubby

Alcoholic Teletubby

Rip in piss
Jan 10, 2022
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Shitty
 
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OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

Experienced
Nov 25, 2024
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Exhausted
 
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S like suicide

S like suicide

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
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Thisisnotaname

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_AllCatsAreGrey_

_AllCatsAreGrey_

(they/he)
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OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

Experienced
Nov 25, 2024
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I feel this a lot. And it's what I came here to say also. Sorry you are SO tired that "exhausted" is a better descriptor for you than "tired".
I hear you 🙂 and even now I was thinking I'm too exhausted to think of a better word. According to google I think depleted is also a good description. Sorry for you too. Can you sleep, or do you get to have some restful hours at least?
 
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CatLvr

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I hear you 🙂 and even now I was thinking I'm too exhausted to think of a better word. According to google I think depleted is also a good description. Sorry for you too. Can you sleep, or do you get to have some restful hours at least?
Every 4-5 days I tank for a couple of days. If the weather changes (the barometric pressure moving around KILLS me) then all bets are off and I have been "down and out" for as long as a couple of weeks at a time. THAT'S rough. And when my thoughts of ctb are at their highest.
 
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Electra

Electra

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Jul 1, 2024
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PARANOID.
 
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OptingOutSmiling

Experienced
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Every 4-5 days I tank for a couple of days. If the weather changes (the barometric pressure moving around KILLS me) then all bets are off and I have been "down and out" for as long as a couple of weeks at a time. THAT'S rough. And when my thoughts of ctb are at their highest.
Wow, that's really bad. If you don't mind me asking, is it due where you live, this weather?
 
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trapped in a maze
Nov 18, 2024
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CatLvr

Paragon
Aug 1, 2024
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Wow, that's really bad. If you don't mind me asking, is it due where you live, this weather?
Yep. I live in Tornado Alley (in the United States). There is ALWAYS SOMETHING forming somewhere headed straight for my home state (Oklahoma).
 
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Q

qwertyuiopasdfghjkl

I don't think; therefore I am not.
Oct 13, 2024
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Failure
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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MISERY !!!!! 😭😭😭
 
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SA1994EC

Member
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Destroyed
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
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OptingOutSmiling

Experienced
Nov 25, 2024
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Yep. I live in Tornado Alley (in the United States). There is ALWAYS SOMETHING forming somewhere headed straight for my home state (Oklahoma).
Wow, it's like the stuff I've only seen on tv... and this is your reality. Any chance to get out of there?
 
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CatLvr

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Wow, it's like the stuff I've only seen on tv... and this is your reality. Any chance to get out of there?
Nah ... This is home. I love it here. All the convenience of big city living, yet I live 1/2 mile from some of the most beautiful rural areas you could ever ask to see. I have a food garden in my front yard, a small fruit orchard and chickens and rabbit and quail in the back. I have my dogs and my cats. I regularly see possums, raccoons and deer in my neighborhood, yet I live literally 3 blocks -- within walking distance -- to a good-sized grocery store AND a Sonic Drive-In 🤗 I am addicted to Sonic Ice -- couldn't want for anything more. (Except maybe a little bit bigger yard so I could have a couple of fainting pygmy goats! 🤗)

I have no idea how I can even ponder how to ctb when I am as fortunate as I am. I know people who would DIE to have the life I have, and yet I have this confounding urge to leave it all behind. I do not understand my brain at all.
 
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OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

Experienced
Nov 25, 2024
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Nah ... This is home. I love it here. All the convenience of big city living, yet I live 1/2 mile from some of the most beautiful rural areas you could ever ask to see. I have a food garden in my front yard, a small fruit orchard and chickens and rabbit and quail in the back. I have my dogs and my cats. I regularly see possums, raccoons and deer in my neighborhood, yet I live literally 3 blocks -- within walking distance -- to a good-sized grocery store AND a Sonic Drive-In 🤗 I am addicted to Sonic Ice -- couldn't want for anything more. (Except maybe a little bit bigger yard so I could have a couple of fainting pygmy goats! 🤗)

I have no idea how I can even ponder how to ctb when I am as fortunate as I am. I know people who would DIE to have the life I have, and yet I have this confounding urge to leave it all behind. I do not understand my brain at all.
Who understands any of this anyways ... all the best 🙂
 
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Electra

Electra

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Softened.
 
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Thisisnotaname

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Junk
 
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CatLvr

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SA1994EC

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