Electra

Electra

In sleep's embrace, forever estranged
Jul 1, 2024
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Overwhelmed.
 
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Unhumanly.

Unhumanly.

Recovery are not the winner.
Feb 24, 2023
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Misplaced
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
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anxious
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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Sleepy
 
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HopingOnaMiracle

HopingOnaMiracle

Specialist
Mar 8, 2024
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Desperate

Don't know how else to put it
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,266
Ambivalent
 
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OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

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Nov 25, 2024
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Exhausted
 
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Thisisnotaname

Thisisnotaname

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Aug 27, 2024
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Gaslighted
 
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_AllCatsAreGrey_

_AllCatsAreGrey_

(they/he)
Mar 4, 2024
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overworked
 
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OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

Member
Nov 25, 2024
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I feel this a lot. And it's what I came here to say also. Sorry you are SO tired that "exhausted" is a better descriptor for you than "tired".
I hear you 🙂 and even now I was thinking I'm too exhausted to think of a better word. According to google I think depleted is also a good description. Sorry for you too. Can you sleep, or do you get to have some restful hours at least?
 
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CatLvr

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Aug 1, 2024
771
I hear you 🙂 and even now I was thinking I'm too exhausted to think of a better word. According to google I think depleted is also a good description. Sorry for you too. Can you sleep, or do you get to have some restful hours at least?
Every 4-5 days I tank for a couple of days. If the weather changes (the barometric pressure moving around KILLS me) then all bets are off and I have been "down and out" for as long as a couple of weeks at a time. THAT'S rough. And when my thoughts of ctb are at their highest.
 
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Electra

Electra

In sleep's embrace, forever estranged
Jul 1, 2024
97
PARANOID.
 
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OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

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Nov 25, 2024
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Every 4-5 days I tank for a couple of days. If the weather changes (the barometric pressure moving around KILLS me) then all bets are off and I have been "down and out" for as long as a couple of weeks at a time. THAT'S rough. And when my thoughts of ctb are at their highest.
Wow, that's really bad. If you don't mind me asking, is it due where you live, this weather?
 
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CatLvr

Warlock
Aug 1, 2024
771
Wow, that's really bad. If you don't mind me asking, is it due where you live, this weather?
Yep. I live in Tornado Alley (in the United States). There is ALWAYS SOMETHING forming somewhere headed straight for my home state (Oklahoma).
 
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Q

qwertyuiopasdfghjkl

I don't think; therefore I am not.
Oct 13, 2024
9
Failure
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
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Lighter.
 
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OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

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Nov 25, 2024
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Yep. I live in Tornado Alley (in the United States). There is ALWAYS SOMETHING forming somewhere headed straight for my home state (Oklahoma).
Wow, it's like the stuff I've only seen on tv... and this is your reality. Any chance to get out of there?
 
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CatLvr

Warlock
Aug 1, 2024
771
Wow, it's like the stuff I've only seen on tv... and this is your reality. Any chance to get out of there?
Nah ... This is home. I love it here. All the convenience of big city living, yet I live 1/2 mile from some of the most beautiful rural areas you could ever ask to see. I have a food garden in my front yard, a small fruit orchard and chickens and rabbit and quail in the back. I have my dogs and my cats. I regularly see possums, raccoons and deer in my neighborhood, yet I live literally 3 blocks -- within walking distance -- to a good-sized grocery store AND a Sonic Drive-In 🤗 I am addicted to Sonic Ice -- couldn't want for anything more. (Except maybe a little bit bigger yard so I could have a couple of fainting pygmy goats! 🤗)

I have no idea how I can even ponder how to ctb when I am as fortunate as I am. I know people who would DIE to have the life I have, and yet I have this confounding urge to leave it all behind. I do not understand my brain at all.
 
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OptingOutSmiling

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Nov 25, 2024
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Nah ... This is home. I love it here. All the convenience of big city living, yet I live 1/2 mile from some of the most beautiful rural areas you could ever ask to see. I have a food garden in my front yard, a small fruit orchard and chickens and rabbit and quail in the back. I have my dogs and my cats. I regularly see possums, raccoons and deer in my neighborhood, yet I live literally 3 blocks -- within walking distance -- to a good-sized grocery store AND a Sonic Drive-In 🤗 I am addicted to Sonic Ice -- couldn't want for anything more. (Except maybe a little bit bigger yard so I could have a couple of fainting pygmy goats! 🤗)

I have no idea how I can even ponder how to ctb when I am as fortunate as I am. I know people who would DIE to have the life I have, and yet I have this confounding urge to leave it all behind. I do not understand my brain at all.
Who understands any of this anyways ... all the best 🙂
 
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Electra

Electra

In sleep's embrace, forever estranged
Jul 1, 2024
97
Softened.
 
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CatLvr

Warlock
Aug 1, 2024
771
Whipped. (I'm hurting today, but the kids are here watching SpongeBob so I'll fake it for a half hour or so until they go home.)
 
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