Heavily depressed. Half of my hometown reminds me of my first and true love because there aren't many places left in the city where I haven't gone down on her or fingered her (once I did the latter in about 50 yards from the main entrance of a kindergarden). Memories I spent years to push down so far that I forgot they ever happened, suddenly started to resurface all at once like a mental tsunami, giving me a pounding headache and the desire to kill myself also returned.