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lmao nevermind, now I feel paranoid. It was totally the drugs.
 
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silence :: guns • shooting • stars
nothing much is making sense anymore... know the feeling?

lately I'm struck dumb, literally :: I've lost the desire to speak.
I spend my mental time making suicide hiakus that no-one will ever know
know one really knows someone else, that scares me.
I'm not sure why. maybe its a relief :: stone cold sober and I hate when I get like this ::
it hurts so much to let go of the things i love
my secretiveness is very messed up, I know myself.
my race against time to desperately get things done
desperation and devotion (do no more than) tear me to shreds.
I am no.thing.more than a lesson in impermanence,
maybe if I saw the bigger picture, understood,
maybe if / when things are different, but what if maybe not?
my planning and scheming, my pathetic need to mean something
when, really:- its all ::
meaningless

counting the days...
Its not 1 word, but my profile limits me to 500 chatacters.
make it mesningfull, Miguel.
 
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BitterlyAlive_

-
Dec 8, 2020
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Weary.
meaningless
silence :: guns • shooting • stars
nothing much is making sense anymore... know the feeling?

lately I'm struck dumb, literally :: I've lost the desire to speak.
I spend my mental time making suicide hiakus that no-one will ever know
know one really knows someone else, that scares me.
I'm not sure why. maybe its a relief :: stone cold sober and I hate when I get like this ::
it hurts so much to let go of the things i love
my secretiveness is very messed up, I know myself.
my race against time to desperately get things done
desperation and devotion (do no more than) tear me to shreds.
I am no.thing.more than a lesson in impermanence,
maybe if I saw the bigger picture, understood,
maybe if / when things are different, but what if maybe not?
my planning and scheming, my pathetic need to mean something
when, really:- its all ::
meaningless

counting the days...
Its not 1 word, but my profile limits me to 500 chatacters.
make it mesningfull, Miguel.
Thank you for writing this. Big hugs to you.
 
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Death is salvation
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Into the Unknown
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In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
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