saw my ma for the last time today.

[ctbcat]

for reference i still live with my parents, but my mother & sister are going for a weekend trip. circumstance meant a lot of my 'last's, i didn't get to experience knowing they were - so naturally i'm dwelling on this one a lot.

i feel like i should've done more. hugged her tighter to make up for all the times she will never be able to once i'm gone. i should've kissed her cheek or done something. it's stupid. being anything but normal would've raised red flags.

feels surreal. 1 and a half days and i'm out. i don't want to live in this body anymore, so i'm glad, and everything's slipped into place, but... can't help feeling traces of bittersweet.

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

i don't know your backstory and i can't imagine what you're going through. i'm sorry...