figcitylightscookie
sad, lonely & desperate
- Nov 21, 2023
- 38
I'm moving back to my home country today from the US, and I'm weirdly sad about it. Life here wasn't all that great, and coming to the US has only made my mental health worse (because of my living conditions, not the country itself). However, I think my life in my home country will be worse. I also made a friend while I was here that I've gotten really attached to, and I'm worried we won't keep in touch. I'm really lonely, and she makes me really happy. She told me she's not going anywhere so I shouldn't miss her, but I don't know. I'm worried about me becoming a bit obsessive of her because she's currently my only friend, but I can't help but feel like this is the beginning of the end. I don't know, it's just a sad day. I can't help but worry about the future even though I know it's destructive.
