Discussion Russian Roulette to Counter SI?

[wanttogetonthebus]

I'm young and was recently in my prime of life. Because of that, my SI is ridiculously high despite the sometimes nearly unbearable intensity of pain I've been in 24/7 due to the sudden onset of a chronic health condition that is likely to remain with me as long as I'm still alive. I came up with some interesting ideas though perhaps impractical ways to help counter my SI. When firing squad executions are performed, only 1 of the shooters unbeknownst him has live ammunition. Therefore, no one knows who really killed the executed and there is no guilt or shame of murder for knowing that one is directly responsible for ending another's life. In that same vein, I wonder if you can apply that principle to counter the fear of killing yourself and dreading the death you know you just incurred. Just for illustration purposes, imagine 6 cups of nembutal. One of them contains a lethal dose and the rest will knock you out. Therefore, you never know if you're really going to die. You can comfort yourself with thoughts like, "I'm just going to sleep." and you won't be afraid. Because 5/6 of the glasses will just make you sleep. If you were to repeat this process multiple times, eventually you'd pick the lethal glass, but you would never know it. You would just go to sleep, and of course catch the bus, except unaware. Perhaps, this is the closest you can come to "a natural death" (natural = unaware when death will take you or if it's your day to die) while still intentionally CTBing. What do you think?

 

[boc]

I like it as a concept. We need more ideas here how to overcome SI. I think a couple issues.

• You would know right away based on the taste when you picked the wrong or right glass.
• N is very expensive. I don't think I have the money to keep playing games with N

 

[healthrecovery]

All that water would make you vomit and that is alot of fluid that you would vomit....especially if you had like 3 glasses

Better get high on some recreational drug
Take something like MDMA have a session where you think of good memories and people who you loved before using N
You want to have a warm and peaceful feeling when lights go out

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

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I like it as a concept. We need more ideas here how to overcome SI. I think a couple issues.

• You would know right away based on the taste when you picked the wrong or right glass.
• N is very expensive. I don't think I have the money to keep playing games with N

Yeah! I'd also love to see more threads on creative ideas to overcome SI! After all, I imagine for many people (certainly for me though!) overcoming SI is and will be the hardest part of CTB. Haha, yeah. N would be too expensive to play games with for average folk like ourselves But in an ideal dream CTB situation, I imagine N would be most people's drug of choice. But that's interesting! I didn't think you'd be able to tell the quantity by the taste! I just assumed the difference would be too subtle. Or you'd have to use something bitter as filler in the safe glasses to mimic the taste of extra N. Or an IV which is totally impractical for almost everyone.

 

[Niirvana]

I like it as a concept. We need more ideas here how to overcome SI. I think a couple issues.

• You would know right away based on the taste when you picked the wrong or right glass.
• N is very expensive. I don't think I have the money to keep playing games with N

Life is a game, and when the desire to play is gone, no matter how much you play, it will not be satisfactory. I agree to play with the SI, I am worried that it will take many years to train him ...I feel anxious to die

 

[bennay]

I like it as a concept. We need more ideas here how to overcome SI. I think a couple issues.

• You would know right away based on the taste when you picked the wrong or right glass.
• N is very expensive. I don't think I have the money to keep playing games with N

In this concept, all the glasses would have N but only one would have a lethal dose so theyre all going to taste bad but you really won't know unless you wake up whether you picked the one or not.
But as you said already, this could be an expensive way to overcome SI assuming that you don't pick the lethal dose and having to keep buying product until you do.

All that water would make you vomit and that is alot of fluid that you would vomit....especially if you had like 3 glasses

Better get high on some recreational drug
Take something like MDMA have a session where you think of good memories and people who you loved before using N
You want to have a warm and peaceful feeling when lights go out

You wouldn't drink all of them, you have 6 glasses, all of them have N but only one has a lethal dose. You change position of the glasses as to not know where the lethal one is, pick 1 glass and drink, you'll pass out but if you wake up, you picked the wrong glass. The downside, is what got wasted in the other 5 while you slept so you'd have to keep buying more until you pick the right glass.

 

[boc]

In this concept, all the glasses would have N but only one would have a lethal dose so theyre all going to taste bad but you really won't know unless you wake up whether you picked the one or not.
But as you said already, this could be an expensive way to overcome SI assuming that you don't pick the lethal dose and having to keep buying product until you do.

You wouldn't drink all of them, you have 6 glasses, all of them have N but only one has a lethal dose. You change position of the glasses as to not know where the lethal one is, pick 1 glass and drink, you'll pass out but if you wake up, you picked the wrong glass. The downside, is what got wasted in the other 5 while you slept so you'd have to keep buying more until you pick the right glass.

A lethal dose of N compared to the a non-lethal dose of N mixed with water would be a very different taste. I think you'd know right away once you picked it. But if you're just downing it either way before the taste hits, maybe it works then.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

In this concept, all the glasses would have N but only one would have a lethal dose so theyre all going to taste bad but you really won't know unless you wake up whether you picked the one or not.
But as you said already, this could be an expensive way to overcome SI assuming that you don't pick the lethal dose and having to keep buying product until you do.

You wouldn't drink all of them, you have 6 glasses, all of them have N but only one has a lethal dose. You change position of the glasses as to not know where the lethal one is, pick 1 glass and drink, you'll pass out but if you wake up, you picked the wrong glass. The downside, is what got wasted in the other 5 while you slept so you'd have to keep buying more until you pick the right glass.

The rich man's Russian roulette. I kinda dig it

 

[bennay]

A lethal dose of N compared to the a non-lethal dose of N mixed with water would be a very different taste. I think you'd know right away once you picked it. But if you're just downing it either way before the taste hits, maybe it works then.

That's what I'm thinking, just chugging it down and since your only chugging one, you have nothing to compare it to. I suppose after so many times of doing this if continually picking the wrong one, you'll know right away by taste that you picked the right one though.

The rich man's Russian roulette. I kinda dig it

 

[xaea13]

I'm not condoning any of these methods (especially since 6 cups of N can't be good for anyone) but CTB by Russian Roulette sounds metal af

 

[miserableforever]

I'm young and was recently in my prime of life. Because of that, my SI is ridiculously high despite the sometimes nearly unbearable intensity of pain I've been in 24/7 due to the sudden onset of a chronic health condition that is likely to remain with me as long as I'm still alive. I came up with some interesting ideas though perhaps impractical ways to help counter my SI. When firing squad executions are performed, only 1 of the shooters unbeknownst him has live ammunition. Therefore, no one knows who really killed the executed and there is no guilt or shame of murder for knowing that one is directly responsible for ending another's life. In that same vein, I wonder if you can apply that principle to counter the fear of killing yourself and dreading the death you know you just incurred. Just for illustration purposes, imagine 6 cups of nembutal. One of them contains a lethal dose and the rest will knock you out. Therefore, you never know if you're really going to die. You can comfort yourself with thoughts like, "I'm just going to sleep." and you won't be afraid. Because 5/6 of the glasses will just make you sleep. If you were to repeat this process multiple times, eventually you'd pick the lethal glass, but you would never know it. You would just go to sleep, and of course catch the bus, except unaware. Perhaps, this is the closest you can come to "a natural death" (natural = unaware when death will take you or if it's your day to die) while still intentionally CTBing. What do you think?

It's a good idea. The uncertainty would drive me crazy, but maybe if it works for someone else, that's a valid approach.